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The blade of betrayal cuts both ways and thats not a threat, its a promise. These aren't vindictive words I speak out of spite, but remorse... pain... resentment that I don't think I'll be able to release for a long time. But then again its not my life you're fucking over. I've been through that shit. My sponsor was right. I don't need to put ( Read more... )

Goddamnit. People still call me every day asking for shit and I don't know why I can't just tell them to stop calling. I have the number memorized... I spent the majority of my teen life wishing I could remember things, its ironic... if I could just selectively forget this shit that keeps sucking me in I'd be a lot better off. "He's at work, I'll ( Read more... )

I haven't really fucked with this much. I tried to make a new one so I wouldn't have to manually delete all my "using" friends, but I'd have to change my e-mail address... and I like to procrastinate... and avoid certain situations... Rehab was a miracle, plain and simple. I never really thought about it until recently, but I should be dead right ( Read more... )

I'm entering into the Right Step program. We get our own houses! Its close to downtown off Montrose... I wonder if anyone would deliver to way down there. Lol, jk.. Drugs are bad. Anyway I go to my interveiw on Monday and we'll prolly arrange for same-day entry. Oh man... I'm not allowed to take my fone either. This is going to be fun.

I’ve been foiled yet again. I’ve only been home 3 days and I’m already leaving again… I failed my drug test. It’s my third one too, how fortunate. That darling sister of mine has sold me out. First, she buys me drinks and gets me into bars… then kicks me out for being an alcoholic… She buys me a plane ticket home knowing I’ve been smoking, half of ( Read more... )

The 17th. Six days and counting..... It's so fucking sad, but I almost dread coming home.... I'm gunna be home the 17th, fail my drug test on the 18th, and be LOVING LIFE in jail on the 19th. All thanks to my couragous BIG BROTHER BARRETT!! THANKS MAN my motherfucking hero. So glad youre part of the MOTHERFUCKING FAMILY!!! God damnit Im so pissed I ( Read more... )

Man, so it's the first of July already. Time flies by up here... not really... more like time moves backwards. I hate it. BUT SOON my friends! Today is technically pay day... the 1st and the 15th of every month. I've been looking into plane tickets online and I could get one for the 17th from Denver to Houston for 160$ but I dont have a credit card ( Read more... )

June 11th was my birthday! I'm a bit late on the update of what may very well have been the worst birthday of my life. Sure I partied a bit, but still. I was alone most of the day, being depressed. I miss my friends. I miss my family... I MISS MY HOME! :( But its all good. I'm working more now. I forgot to call my P.O. on Tuesday. Oops. Well I'm at ( Read more... )

So I'm in Colorado! Whooo! WITHOUT A SKATEBOARD! Depressing. And on top of that THERES NOT ENOUGH SNOW TO SNOWBOARD! Terrible. I'm at work right now slacking off as usual so I must make this quick. The guys out number the girls in Copper Mountain at a ratio of about 10 to 1... which would be tolerable if all the guys weren't like 40 years old... ( Read more... )