In days gone past i couldn't say the way i feel to well ( Read more... )

I've decieded that i can't be friends with people who tell lies. I don't know what to do or who to believe so i am just going to be friends with those i trust. I'm tired of people telling my one love that she causes their problems when sheis just trying to be happy with me.

Today my biggest weakness was shown at work. A friend cut her finger and bled near me and I have a fear of blood. After turning as white as a sheet I proceded to almost throw up all night. I wish i wasn't such a freaking spaz.... All I know is I wish I could be with the few people who I consider friends more. I have so few of them left. That and I ( Read more... )

Why can't I just be happy? I love my Amanda with every fiber of my being but in the last week all i seem to do is drive her nuts. Why can't she trust me? Why can't she let me be there for a friend? I know that Sarah has backstabbed me and her many times. I know she hasn't been the best of friends with us. BUT i know for a fact she would be right in ( Read more... )