omg. i swear i am going nuts. all i can think about right now is killing myself. maybe jump off a ledge, take a knife to my wrists, take a bunch of pills. i am trapped in a fucking room, no windows, no doors. nothing. i am screaming and no one can hear me, no one cares. i dont know what to do. i want to hurt me. my son. everyone around me! GAH! why ( Read more... )

so things are going good. sal turns 5months this sunday, he went swimming for the first time and yea! here are some pictures!


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ok so things are going ok. i am just having a hard time breathing right now. but i think i am just really stressed. right now yvette, sal, sydney, and her boyfriend are playing mario party. junior is just kinda sitting there watching, fasinated by all the colors wooooo ( Read more... )

well i finally have internet and cable. and it is so nice! no more fuzzy tv and messing with bunny ears! yay! well the jr is falling asleep, and today he is 4months. i cant believe it has been that long already. he is so big now! i mean he is already teething! and he is wearing 6month clothing! i am like wow! and i still cant believe he is mine! ( Read more... )

well things have been going. baby sal is 2months old now, and we are ok. big sals cousin died on the 12th. he ran into a bus. it was very hard for him. but now he is better. i also got to learn how to make tamales. and xmas was cool. sal got me an ipod shuffle. and all 3 volumes of foamy! it was kick ass. well i think i am going to go. i might go ( Read more... )

well the baby finally came. october 18th at 2:12am. he was 9lbs and 4oz, a full head of hair, and came out swinging like tarzan. he was holding his umbilical cord and was squeezing it. hahaha. scared me but was funny. well just thought i would let everyone know this. still dont have the net, but i will post pics as soon as i can. bai bai!

ok so we got approved and sals dad is helping us majorly. and we get to move into our own apt! well condo to be technical. but its really nice. its 2bdr 2bth with fireplace, washer/dryer hookup. has a pool and spa, plus a fitness center! sal and i are so excited! we move outta here on the 28th! woo hoo! now lets just hope that the baby doesnt come ( Read more... )

well sal and i are moving now. we are going to go look at the apt (well condo) as soon as sal gets home. see it all started cuz monday was a holiday. so sat everyone worked. they came home and sal started work on the room and his brothers, marlo and eric, started drinking. they got completely wasted. well things gotta outta hand. see as sal was ( Read more... )

so i am now 32 weeks pregnant. its getting really close now. i am getting annoyed with the little things, like having to pee literally every 5-15mins, not being able to get sleep. stuff like that. but i know it will be worth it. baby sal is doing sommersaults and stuff, and let me tell you it hurts ( Read more... )

well the baby shower was fun. i was so happy i got to see ashley! she looked great! i was trying to figure out if she lost like 20lbs or more. but yea things were good. the only thing sal and i need to get is a stroller and a playpin. we got so much stuff though! thank you guys! i mean even after condensing stuff, we still packed the back of the ( Read more... )