I'm still here.
I need help.
ugh.

all I have to say for myself is I start tomorrow.
Got really stress covered news about work tomorrow and... just.... couldn't deal so ate. a lot. and i purged. and i thought i was over that.
but you know what? it will be okay.
tomorrow.
and even though i have AWESOME friends here, i have nobody with an ed who can relate and.. it sucks.

ALRIGHT. I don't know why it matters... but it does. Its the first day of a new month and I am wiping the past "eating" slate clean. Starting from fresh! So how did I do today? Meh. Eating small meals but still EATING ( Read more... )

OK rounding UP I had about 995 cals today. Part of that reason was because I was dumb and had candy for breakfast. hello! Not only will I keep nibbling on more candy but then I'll crash and feel sick and eat more then I should at lunch. BUT I am happy with that number for now, for the start of the month. I want to eat 800 cals tomorrow, NO MORE ( Read more... )

Its not about being 'thin' or 'in fashion'. Its about wanting to see bones. What's up with that? Who knows.

Yeah so ( Read more... )

Hey there...
Haven't posted in ages because.. I've been GOOD. yes. GOOD. Healthy, active, everything. Sick of being fatfatfat. I'm so blah average. I want to get skinny again. End of story. Too blah to say much else. Things ARE looking up, though. Ugh.

Hey there ( Read more... )

Wow I haven't been here in a long time. I have been happy and healthy. Until today. I tried on a pair of pants I wore last summer to go out and I was way too fat to fit into them ( Read more... )

Going strong. Staying healthy, and slimming down! YESSSSS! Here's to all you girls who were ana and thought that when you recovered you'd just blimp out. Yes, I gained over ten pounds when I recovered, but I have been dropping those pounds with healthy eating and exercize. I was going to order out today, but I was only down 1/2 pound so I stuck to ( Read more... )