i have decided not to worry so much about this situation because i cannot do anything about it until april at the earliest. well maybe jan or feb. but that's not the point. i think i've been thinking a little too romantically and not very realistically. plus talking every night, we're gonna run out of shit to say. already seemed that way last ( Read more... )

this shit has really been bugging me. i dont nkow whether my previous words are well-thought out, if i am really using my best judgement. i go through serious periods of doubt about my ability to actually be content and commit. seems like it;d work right now but the thought of leaving really bums me out. but so does the thought that there's a ( Read more... )

oops early on in the previous entry it says i had issues but they were minor, what i meant was i had issues with her actions, but in the grand scheme they were so fuckin minor. my issues, not so minor.

this weekend has really brought about some changes. it started with me drinking a shitload of wine around thursday or so, staying up late, lamenting, etc... i check my myspace shit and check out amelia's page.. there's this one picture where her eyes are the focus of the pic and she is just so gorgeous, her eyes are a very pretty bluish green, ( Read more... )

is the concept of a nice, older girl who made out with me the first night i hung out with her and hosted me at her house all the next weekend , keeping in touch with me a week later, that ridiculous??!!??

why do i even care about this shit, i was supposed to be leaving for portland in a few weeks anyway.

had a good birthday last tuesday. got bought 4 shots a caesar and a beer within 10 minutes. the last bar we went to is kinda fuzzy ( Read more... )

I AM 54% PUNK ROCK!
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yep, just like 2 years ago when i found 14 unheard of BR tracks on kazaa. pretty good, although im missing a few tracks and just wanna get em done and put in order for a cd. maybe only one song i dont like so much. all there is is great as everyione says, most of it is due to the whoa ohs in the chorus they kinda remind me of madonna's "like a ( Read more... )

worked today. no cigs, again... fuck it i quit for 9 weeks gotta do it again. took out one of them thar pay uh day loans. probably a bad idea, but i need it so i can pay all the bills and shit at once this comin monday. hmm.. what else, found 3 tracks from the new bad religion online. not too bad, but not surprising either. kinda upbeat, ( Read more... )

work's boring, im almost broke, smoking again. bleh ( Read more... )