So obviously i snapped. The PPD finally got to me. With all of the busyness of the holidays and my own life as basically a single parent i just snapped. Bared my soul to my husband and asked him to quit his job. He did and he helped me thru my darkness. Soon after i started picking up the peices and get my life somewhat working. It is still a day ( Read more... )

I cant explain why but ive been in the worst place. Its hard to get out of bed and take care of the kids. I feel useless. Like whatever i do no one will notice. im tired of fighting with the hospital and making no progress. Im tired fighting my toddler to listen to me. Im tired of not being able to calm my baby. Im tired of fighting for my husband ( Read more... )

Relationship turned from "rant... how do we fix it" to: "rant...  "okay""

Okay.
Okay?
Go fuck yourself. If this is marriage i should have just gotten a sperm donor.

... i dont even have words to explain how embarrassing my relationship is.

... it happens every time "lets talk ablut this" turns into "go ahead and rant. .. now how do we fix it" cause i have all the answers. I signed up for 2 kids honey, not 3. Lets have a convo and work something out instead of "what do we do now?" Im sure now he thinks everything is fine and ill drop it like i always do. And in 2 months we will have ( Read more... )

they are working on the the electric box in our neighborhood so i busted out all the candles. its actually peaceful. everyone is asleep not tv or noise and here i am surrounded by soft glowing candles. i should do this more often its relaxing. good end to this couch potatoe day

its pretty ridiculous when your "good days" consist of finishing laundry organizing your kitchen and having your babies naps sync up. end with a nice beer and im a happy camper. when all your days are hectic and nerve racking. .. days like this give me a hope.

Ive been debating starting journaling again. im just going to give it a shot... no compy so all of this is going to be done on my phone. excuse spelling grammar and whatever else cause i know this is basically for myself. to keep my mind straight.

update: found a great man i would say my soulmate but if i did i would vomit in my mouth. 2 kids. Z is ( Read more... )

I just got off work, and i am packed full of coffee cause APPEARENTLY the starbucks in Murrieta is open 24-7... they should not have told me that. Bad idea, but yeah i closed tonight made 120... not to shabby for a thursday.So yeah, thats pretty much my life as of today, still havent talked to my mother in over a week. Im gonna go see my daddy ( Read more... )

I seemed to totally loose my LJ touch. A few questions:
How do i make my journal friends only?
Isnt there a way to keep myself logged in all the time?
I just hate logging in every time, its annoying

I fianlly have internet in my apartment, you shall never get rid of me livejournal. NEVER!