I think this will be my last post for this blog. I am a totally different person from when I first started this and after looking through this entire journal, I realized that I worried about things that really meant nothing and had little significance. It's amazing how big things seem to someone when they're young. This in a way is a turning ( Read more... )

I'm single. I don't hate it. I hate not having her.
I play soccer for Emerald city green.
I'm a starting outside mid for hale.
This xc season is about to be amazing.
I kick it and do whatever the fuck I want.

Life's... changed so much.

I want everything to be okay again.

This might sound retarded but I just saw children of men. I really liked it. These movies of post apocalyptic times really get me. It's just like because I live thinking that all we're here for is this idea of self realization and learning how we need to do things to get through things. These types of movies just show me like that shit can ( Read more... )

Well I've watched like a couple movies in the last 3 days. Saw 3, Se7en and The Night Listener or something. Kind of a fucked up list of movies. Wow after watching this like combination of movies, I've realized that the world is just like a fucked up place. I mean I know their movies but there at one time was a person out there doing that shit ( Read more... )

So lately, it seems like I've just been having to make big decisions. I feel like I'm the only one having to make them. It's weird. How come no one else has no big life changing decisions?

Well it's been a while since I've posted. Too long I'd say. Life is so different now. I don't even really remember the last time I posted. Let's see here, last time I posted I was still with Kathy. Yeah I'm still with her. Coming close to nine months. I guess I'll start off talking about that aspect of my life. I really like her. I like ( Read more... )

I decided that I need not dwell on the past because, what mistakes were made in the past or what things ever happened have shaped and led to the great person I know today. I also decided that living life is best lived when its taken day by day. Kind of like when people bring out the idea that you should make the most of each moment because ( Read more... )

Whether or not, things are going perfect or not. I'm happy. There's always room for improvement. I'm in love with kathy. No joke. School's fine. Just gotta start putting some effort into it. Can't mess around. Sports is the biggie. Ahh big upset with XC but hopefully going to do good at Footlocker West Regionals. Well, many thoughts on ( Read more... )

I thought about and I always tell myself about how I need to be appreciative of life and it's not easy. There's no way you can be fully happy but I don't know. Life seems to be a little bit more gloomy then happy. I guess it's just those little moments that make up for those big gaps in life. But really, appreciation I think is the key to a ( Read more... )