[willow was dead set on coming over.  'to make things better,' she said.

some buried, bitter part of him laughed at that.

being awake wasn't even pain.  pain would be preferable because it meant there was still something to care about.  no, being awake was nothing.  it was all the same.  he grew close to someone and then they betrayed him.  they left ( Read more... )

[the semi-darkness does not hide shinji curled into a ball on his bed.  does not hide the SDAT curled in a fist and held onto like a life line.  does not hide the state of disrepair of his room.

does not hide his darkened, empty eyes staring at nothing.

his free hand flexes once of its own accord.  lifting the arm as if it were made of lead, he holds ( Read more... )

The last thing she ever said to me was that she hated me ( Read more... )

I feel...sad.

But I can't cry.

Why?

It's been a long time since I posted here.

I think something happened to Kaji-san.  From the way Misato is crying, I--I think he's dead.  I should go talk to her.  But what can I say?  What can I do?  It wouldn't change anything.  And....  I'm still just a child.  Adult things like that aren't my business.

Misato.  He left something for you.

This is really just here for my benefit.

( teki, teki, boku no teki )

[much like the video that was put on the community, his back is to the camera, but this time there is no lake.  no shadow.  no Shadow.

just his room (cleaned up since the last time anyone saw it) and shinji seated with his cello.  one deep breath and then:]

( cut for video / saving space )

OKAY BROS

WHAT EXACTLY HAPPENED

Team, crazy shit that went down, etc.  I'm going to put up a floor breakdown in a bit so you can get a feel for what the team went through.  :>  More than willing to work out anything extra.

EDIT: Some basic notes on what happened.  Floor dialogue will be up sometime within the next week.

( cut for space )

[shinji's room looks like a wrecking crew went through it.  boxes are in pieces, books are scattered throughout the room (many have pages torn out), even the bed didn't make it.  the sheets were torn off and the pillow ripped in half.  whoever did this was angry--furious, even.

shinji stands in the middle of the room with his back turned to the ( Read more... )

( OOC Cut for length )