Emotions drive us in directions we never knew to take. The only problem is that once those emotions choose to flee, they take with them all sense of direction to get us back to where we need to be. How can I be so lost? Where has my misguided heart left me? I find myself on the side of the metaphorical road that is my life, not knowing yet if I'll ( Read more... )

The more I think about not being a science major anymore, the more I like it. It's not that I'm giving up on it, although my parents may think it is. I hate that my parents and I don't see eye to eye on this. For as long as I can remember, my parents have been behind me in all that I chose to pursue, but now that I'm really serious about going ( Read more... )

Ok, so wrapping up where I left off before ( Read more... )

I've been stressed about a lot lately, but until today I was blaming that on just one part of the whole picture. I've been doing some thinking, meditating on my thoughts and emotions and trying to figure out what exactly has been eating at me so bad lately, and I realize that while I had part of it down, there was a lot of me that I wasn't paying ( Read more... )

Sorry, I don't think livejournal is really the place for me to post what I'm thinking right now. I had some long thing typed out, but who really needs to be worrying about all that bullshit, seriously. Tonight I thought would be a hell of a lot better than it turned out to be, and I seriously wish I had stayed home instead of trying so hard to get ( Read more... )

What are our biggest fears? What is it that is so terrifying in our lives? At some point or another, everone gets scared; sometimes it's actually the brave ones that can admit it while the fools run along pretending to be invincible. I am one of those fools. I have been hiding myself behind a wall of my own creation, trying to convince people ( Read more... )

I've had trouble sleeping before, but this is getting ridiculous. I sat in bed last night after all the night's chaos and decided about 5:15 A.M. that sleep was simply not on the agenda. It wasn't for lack of trying, just lack of ability. Instead, I got up and cooked some breakfast in the dorm, ran to Ramsey and worked out (again) and then ran back ( Read more... )

I should be doing a lab report for biology right now, but I know I'm not going to be able to concentrate. Have you ever had one of those times where you had so much you needed to do, but you find yourself thinking too much about other things (and other people) to really get anything done? The ones where you're trying so hard to keep focused on the ( Read more... )

It's been a very eventful week ( Read more... )

Fall break is a few hours away. Tonight is yet another night where at the end of it, all I can express is amazement. I must not have been living before, because everything seems so vivid right now. I'm in a good place... I'm not exactly sure how I got here, but I'm thankful for every moment that passes now. "Excitement" doesn't quite do justice to ( Read more... )