Expectation is like petrol. It fuels you up but it can set you alight all the same. For the time being, i am throwing it out of the window and focus. Focus, damn it.

Ego…the I, the self, alter ego, self-esteem, amour propre, ego tripper, egotist, self-conceptualizer, self-imaginer.

Implications?

Don't know.

I know my Ego is low.

Goal: Preserve Ego.

709am ( Read more... )

What has four years of med school gave me? Chronic back pain + stress, a big hole in my pocket + a bonus, an avenue for me to work with animals ( Read more... )

I realised i am very quick-tempered and snapped recklessly. Stress related? Or bad natured? Hmmm.......

Tonnes of things to finish memorizing but still slugging around. wtf.

Can't wait for holy week to come.... one more draggy week to go.

Now, back to my anaesthesia reading.

*poof*

~ disappear

Today's lecture on gastrointestinal tracts got me thinking ( Read more... )

Quite a bit has happened since the start of 2008 and beginning of 2009. These has tripped me into thinking more about myself and who i really am. In the ditch, i found that all that has kept me miserable is my expectation. I project my expectation, exponentially, on myself and onto my partner, and in that fashion, my life. But how and when can one ( Read more... )

Last night zoo and karen throw us a graduation party for our completion Bsc in veterinary biology. It's nice to be congratulated and have people showed that they care. People needs a pat on their back every once in a while, esp in time when they feel like they are walking alone ( Read more... )

It was a short day in uni and time passes relatively fast. After uni, i went out for lunch with Tijah in a japanese place and had a quick catch up with her. Apparently, she shaved off her hair after she had some auto-immune alopecia (probably stress-related), but she still look cool nevertheless ( Read more... )

Last night was a long night for me. I couldn't sleep. Thoughts were flashing through my mind. I kept waking up feeling the need for fresh air. What was it? The feeling of helplessness or the feeling of my anticipation of something dreadful that might happen? Or was it the stress from the pile of notes and lectures that i am so far behind in ( Read more... )