I hate who I am today ( Read more... )

Confusion presents itself every day, whether traveling the streets of iowa city, in class, at work, or just laying in bed trying to figure out life. Doubt throws itself in my face and then is washed away with a few compliments. Up, down, walking proudly, heaped in a bloody pile, from one extreme to the next I question my abilities and the reason ( Read more... )

I don't feel the pain like I thought I would.

I wonder if I will ever be significant

After a week of crying in my bedroom, I realized how much I take advantage of certain things. I'm just so glad that I am finally starting to feel like a person again ( Read more... )

I wish I was stronger. I wish I could let things just roll off my back and not have it matter so much. I wish I could stick up for myself and the people I love. I wish I could be half of what I say I am. I wish I didn't succumb to jealousy. I wish I didn't hurt you so much to make myself feel better ( Read more... )

Star struck turns to strike out, an inevitable part of my life. In the beginning, everything seems so exciting and refreshing. The possibilities intrigue me, and even though I promise I will take it slow, I end up sealing my fate with three words in less than two dates. It makes me sick inside to hear how much someone loves me and not know if I ( Read more... )

I feel absolutely horrible. I don't know what to do, I don't know what to say to make the situation any better. Sometimes I hate it that Ashley calls me for support and then I hate myself for hating it because she is boxed away and needs someone to talk to. But I don't know what to tell her when she is saying that her mom calls her a fucking ( Read more... )

Fingernails drag down my skin as I try to ignore the aching need to give into my desires. Failing is inevitable, and I have done so several times, yet with each attempt I promise myself that this will be the time I succeed. Only when time passes and my initiative fades do I allow myself to succumb. Defeat sets in because it feels like I will ( Read more... )

Cruise through life and you will never understand the theme or the reason for living. In order to really appreciate living, you need to prod yourself every day for the answers. Ask yourself if you are happy, and if you're not, then do something about it. Don't just sit around and wait for happiness to happen. You need to make it happen or it ( Read more... )

Abandoned and scared, Keisha walked through the jungle trying to find shelter from the raging storm. She knew that it was only going to get worse, and if she didn't find shelter soon that she wouldn't survive. The thoughts that raced through her head egged her on. She could not believe that her people had been sold. The thought of being someone ( Read more... )