well what the fuck man, why is he doing this. im not an idiot, i know why he wants to fuckingmove to washington, to go see his beloved best friends and shit. or fuck them, same exact thing. i dont understand why he would even begin this relationship with me if he fucking wants to leave fucking california. i dont understand why i am getting this way ( Read more... )

i hate ryan. i dont know what i was thinking. did i think he'd fall for me as hard as i fell for him. well apparently i did because now i am wrapped up in my own misery.

well what is there to say?
morro bay wa sbeautiful.
i enjoyed watching the sunset and listening to sigur ros.
it was perfect.

FUCK HIM!
HE PLAYED WITH MY MIND!
he even admitted to it.youd think hed be more mature and just be honest with me.
i feel used.
i hate feeling used.
what were his intentions?
he fucking dumped me for another girl.
i dont want this to hurt me.
but it does.

im gonna go take my permit test. yes!

man im frustrated. definitely frustrated. mostly with myself. i just gave up on myself. i need so me kind of motivation. but i have a self esteem issue so its really hard to set myself straight again. i need some saving!!!!

living alone with tons of money or living with your soul mate in a shelter ( Read more... )

i can tell that my woes are wearing me down. when people from the outside peering in take notice, that is when you know you've got to do something about it. i know im not the same person. ive grown in a brief moment in time. this spring break really opened up my mind. i still need to grow, but im so impatient. i want everything to happen now ( Read more... )

im gonna start this all over.