I have a new ljsn, for certain reason i'm sure many of you already know about. go ahead and add me if you want, i'll try to add the ppl in my friends list, but i know there's others I dont have yet.

my sn's xrainbowgothx

c ya:)

I hate this. everyone seems so lost in their own pity party that i just get lost in the background noise. i'm not saying i'm more important by any means, but i'm tired of hearing 'i got dumped' or 'my bf,gf is or isnt doing this' or anything else with relationships. SHUT THE FUCK UP!! endure my problems.. no, live my life for one day and i'm sure ( Read more... )

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I'm tired of being depressed, but i'm scared to be happy, because when i'm happy... bad things usually happen that make me depressed again. *sighs* I dunno what to do, I wanna cut myself, throw up, write, scream, kick, cry, kill and be killed all at once. I dunno what's going on... I really don't... it just needs to stop.. or something...

I really truly honestly don't mean to bitch so much, it just always seems like things are going bad for me. I was always told it was better to let it out than to keep it bottled up inside, so i let it out, and then people get mad at me... so I dunno wht to do anymore. Matt was talking about train hopping today, it made me smile because I had ( Read more... )

why is it when the only thing i wanna do is be alone, that everyone starts talking to me!?! And my ex's of all people!! If this moon cycle was about learning from your past ok ok o-fucking-k i get the picture, i've learned from it and i have PROOF that everyone's lives are better without me in them.. atleast in the relationship way. All of my ex's ( Read more... )

California's looking better and better. First my family's constant fighting and bitching, now all my friends bailing on me. Why stick around? What's the point. Even my mom saw today how I'm not bullshitting when i say i always get bailed on. She heard me on the phone with 4 different people who all said they were going, then canceled. there's no ( Read more... )

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Alrighty, in light of the presidential inaguration(sp) I figured I would make another post after reading alot of stuff recently that has really pissed the hell outta me. First off... Spongebob Squarepants...openly homosexual or just friendly? Of all things to accuse of being gay a christian conservatist group (aka evangelists) are saying that ( Read more... )

As much of a loner as I try to be, I honestly have no idea where I would be without my friends. Last night at club I ran into Melley and Spike, both of them were leary of me when Frost and I first started dating, and now they keep in closer contact with me then they do with him. I told them the sitch and both were like 'good riddance' which shocked ( Read more... )