Hi, friends

[chlorinegoddess]

Alright. I give in. I'll update for the first time in, literally, months. What caused this revolution, you might ask? Well, I've been having some issues of late, you might say. It all feels unsettlingly like second semester senior year again, which was one of the most stressful, uncertain, and upsetting periods of my life. So, inspired by

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[gildeddawn]

You are a smart girl, and you should listen to you.

But speaking from the perspective of having been in your place - and probably even worse off, because I think you're a bit more rational than I am - I know how it goes. And it's really hard. But, as you once told me in another moment of brilliance...um, ok. I can't seem to find it. But it was about taking things one day at a time and enjoying the moment. It's hard to do, I know, especially when grad school looms, but it can be done. And it's really important that you do it. If there's one thing I've learned in the last year it's that you can't live your life just waiting for it to pass, even if it's only for "the next six months" or "the next year."

So live and laugh and cry and do all that stuff as much as you can. I know, it suits neither of us to have no control over the future, but it's possible to make the best of it. And I think you know that. And do it better than I do, even.

Be strong, Kate. We all know you are. (And in the weak moments, we're here.)

[phoenix9477]

*love*

[luke123]

I'm sorry for the bad times Kate. They definitely suck. It's weird, or perhaps not, that you described the pain in a sense as "waiting" which is EXACTLY how I've described this. On the one hand I can't wait to be done, and I'm just kind of waiting to finish, but on the other hand I'm not eager about finishing because I have no idea where that next step leads. And I've also been in the whole no family, really close friends (for you, roommates) or significant other around position and that just makes it worse. So that really sucks, at least it did for me. The good news is that things get better, as I'm sure you know, and these down times definitely lead to new perspectives so sometimes there's a transformative silver lining. Sometimes. I know that's not as optimistic as I had hoped. But I really do wish you the best. Let me know if I can do anything besides fail at trying to cheer you up on livejournal :).

[red_planet]

Kate! I miss you and I really wish I could be there (to take you to the mechanic among other things). It sounds like you've hit a bit of a rough patch. I know what you mean about things being decided for you without any control over your own outcome...I definitely felt that way early spring of our senior year. I know that things will work out for you though. It might not turn out to be what you were expecting or even what you hoped, but I know with that head on your shoulders you will make it work for you. I'm secretly, or not so secretly, hoping you get into some school out here on the East Coast :) Whatever happens, know that there are people out there who care deeply about you even if we're farther away than we would like to be. Call me or email me any time you need to talk.

[ifitsnotbaroque]

you're missing your honors project?

christ, i had no idea things had gotten that bad. and funny enough, i know what you mean. i have a odd urge to dust mine off and rewrite it.

strange how that works.