Well lets see ( Read more... )

It has indeed been forever and three years since the last time I posted anything here. But yea. Here's the scoop :)

OH YEA HIIIII EVERYONE!!!!!.....who even remember who I am at least lolAnyway, I've moved back to Columbia with the rents and its not all bad. They loosened up a lot. I guess I'll also be starting school a la Tech for this fall ( Read more... )

So in an attempt to keep my cool, I told Jordan how I felt...I wish I hadn't...but I'm at least a bit more sane now. I can't believe that I did that OMG! I'm mortified. I felt so selfish saying any of this to him:

First of all I want to say that I am so sorry ( Read more... )

Well wow haven't been here in a hot minute but ehh ( Read more... )

Its been a rather interesting week so far ( Read more... )

SO wow Saturday was of extreme interestingness ;) I had a date with this guy named John (yea another one lol). It was cool lol. So he got to my apartment at like 6'ish or so. So my room mate left her car for me to drive around while she was out of town and all. So long story short, I couldn't find the spare key for it....shit. That just meant I'd ( Read more... )

So you know what? Even though my friend Lina (linabee>) has a weird and COMPLETELY unprompted way of doing it, she reminded me of something that I didn't do with Jordan. Even though he was as shady as a inner city swim hole, I still never gave him the benefit of a doubt...I didn't give him or me the opportunity to prove himself otherwise of all the shit that was going around about him whether it was true or not :( I think that's in essence why he's so upset (or was or whatever)....hmm but oh well. We're

WOW well yea I sent a little note to Jordan and I was like basically "even though you 'hate me', I hope that w/ever issues we 'have' can be overlooked." And he wrote in response (but first here's what I wrote in detail ( Read more... )

So once again I think I have "ruined" any chance with another someone because I demand "too much" honesty and conviniently enough I didn't "hear the right answer" when saying what I wanted to do about "us" so I started blaming him for all this shit and making him feel like a child and calling him a liar and not trusting........I'm sorry it seems ( Read more... )

Ok..........now that I've had a bit of time to recover what shattered pieces of my dignity and mental well being that remain lol, I think.............I know that I have no idea what I want....and I'm bout damned sure nobody does in this whole perdicament. So I've given it though and have come to these conclusions ( Read more... )