Ok..........now that I've had a bit of time to recover what shattered pieces of my dignity and mental well being that remain lol, I think.............I know that I have no idea what I want....and I'm bout damned sure nobody does in this whole perdicament. So I've given it though and have come to these conclusions ( Read more... )

So like I've been really torn about this for the past few weeks now but I think I'll just put it out there for food for thought ( Read more... )

So I think that its decided...we won't work out. That's not the bad thing...the bad thing is that I really do like him. I mean he's everything but a good kisser lmao. I t actually kinda hurts?? I mean I want to be with him I guess (I know) but I know that it won't "end well" if I did. He's the type to "drink his pain away". Not to mention the fact ( Read more... )

As little as I wanna say it, it really bugs me that he's always fucked up (Kyle if you're reading this [Yes you Spigakkens] then I'm sure you can relate). I mean sure being fucked up is BEAST man but I mean really...all the time?? Its like at the point where he can't have fun or w/ever unless he's high or drunk. and if neither of the options are ( Read more... )

Wow so I don't think I've updated LJ this much in a while! I'm on a friggin role hellz yea! Anyway, Thanksgiving break was pretty cool. Instead of going home which woudld'a been nice (although I wasn't at all in the mood to deal with the rents.....and the rent's rents lol) I went home with Lina for Thanksgiving. I had ham, chicken, turkey, and ( Read more... )

HMMMM.......you know.....everyday, more and more, I am CONVINCED that there isn't a single soul in the WORLD who is actually and honestly worth my time except my parents....and maybe one or two more individuals. Remember "X" now don't you? Well "X" is being QUITE an asshole...or at least I think as much...I'm not at all sure. If I did somethine.... ( Read more... )

Well for the first time in a while I've felt....dare I say....giddy?????????????????????? lol its so weird. Like I spent a bit of time with some friends and one of them in particular wanted me to come and "hang out" and we did. It was really cool cause like I learned all this stuff about Buddhism and Fung shue (sp) and Karma and person "X" read my ( Read more... )

learn Chinese in 5 minutes...:-D ( Read more... )

OH....My....GOD....I absolutely hate guys.....especially the gay ones. Like really ok here's the thing ( Read more... )

So aside from the this weekend (as briefly follows ( Read more... )