my summer. it's been pretty much what i expected. it had some fun times with the girls. nice relaxing days of just laying outside in the sun. decent number of hours working. lots of boredom of course. and i've keeping a steady pace on summer reading. im really stressed for the rest of this month. julien is moving to PA tomororw and its at least an ( Read more... )

god fucking damnit. why are boys so confusing. and hurtful. and fucking inconsiderate. and where are my friends when i need them. there's no one to talk to. no one cares. of course he has his friends to talk to. i gave up mine for him. to make him happy. and instead he makes me miserable. its all my fucking damn fault. i made myself this way. i ( Read more... )

i like how i used to record every detail in my really old lj entries. it jsut brings back lots of entries. so maybe i should keep recording things ( Read more... )

so i was reading my old lj entries. and I MISS MY FRIENDS. i miss bobbyhoward and all of our fun inside jokes. he was my bff. snappy and clappy died :o( caitlin and i drifted apart too. she was my summer bum and we could have so much fun doing nothing. and jeni doesnt seem to want to be my friend anymore. i had soo many fun memories at her house ( Read more... )

school's almost over! thank god. i hate school. not like i have anything big planned for the summer but im still excited for it!

i get to go to NYC next weekend. wohooo. can't say that i've ever been there before.

nothing much exciting going on for me. jsut lots of work and school.

ok, im done with this pointless entry.

i'm so in love. and i don't care what you think.

it seems stupid. i shouldnt care. but i do. my parents or my boyfriend never come to my orchestra concerts. i feel pointless going with no1 to care to see me there. my parents didnt even see me off to my own prom. no picutres or anything. im still jsut hurt by that. haha, msot people would like to have the house to themselves all weekend. i hate it ( Read more... )

im actually pretty content lately. of course there are many problems still, but i feel mellow. i feel like everything is going to be ok.

my life is so messed up. and the sad part is, its my own damn fault.

i wish i could meet one person who knows nothing about me. and tell this person my life story. without any biasm or anything. i jsut need someone to talk to. theres so much about me people dont know. they only assume things. im lonely. really lonely. :o/