I sit here...lost, in a world where there are so many road maps and street signs counting down the miles till i reach my eternity. i look in my passenger seat and there is no one there. strange, because there is a groove in the seat. so busy looking down at the seat i forget about the road of life and twist and turns it takes me on. The brakes ( Read more... )

This morning at 2:46am i found myself waking on the futon in front of the living room television. now my arm hurts from the way i was sleeping. i knew i should have just gotten up and gone to bed, but family guy was on tv, so i decided to watch it a little. i was alseep by 2:48am. So i went to bed ( Read more... )

Yesterday i had one of the lowest experiences of my life. i lost a friend, not just any friend, but a best friend and a mentor. no he wasn't killed in some accident, the friendship was, simply put, ended. at frist all of my emotions were settled in anger. i hated the very ground he walked on. i couldnt understand his reasoning and personally ( Read more... )

So i have moved into a new apart with a friend of mine, Johmyrin. so far the its coming along great. It's wierd livign with someone whose already graduated by in the same it doesn't matter because we're friends and friends should be pass that. It's been like 1 1/2 weeks and i still wake up at night to the random creeks of the house, sirens on ( Read more... )

As the world turns times are changing. Everyday I get a glimpse into the real world and then I retreat in my college ways. So far this summer has just been alright. I've been so busy moving and painting and stuff that i forgot about the fact that i had a whole week off from school. Yes you heard me, a whole week for summer vacation. I hate ( Read more... )

So now that school for the year has come to an end, I look at all of the leaving seniors who have guided me, shieled me, and acted butt ass wild with me and i sigh. This leaving class holds a special place in my heart. Now that they are graduates i started to ask myself, "whose going to look over at me in orchestra when i play that wrong note?" ( Read more... )

The past two days have been insane. first of all, for the past month i been plannign and preparing for a move. Throuhg things out of my control, the aspects of this move are not looking so great. There are people doing everything in their will to make the process a living hell, when all they have to do is say "okay". Next, i have a friendship ( Read more... )

1 of my two best friends told me today that i am too dependent. I agree. We've talked about how people expect too much sometimes, and i started to do just that. I didn't mean to put more pressure on someone who already felt the weight of the world. It was something I didn't notice until i was told. I'm sorry ( Read more... )

I want what's bad for me. I need what is good.

(this entry is straight from my mind to the page. i have not screened it and as the thoughts developed in my mind i typed them. in other words, this is a constant stream of thought. no editing here. sorry for mispelled words, or bad grammar ( Read more... )