(i wrote this to a boy a few months ago, we were writing letters while he was away. he later broke my heart a little bit but this remains the best way i can sum up the year ( Read more... )

now i am done with
the way you blow me off
getting braver daily

go back to your wife
remember the things we did
jerk off late at night

i am tired of buying
drugs for your ass like some piece
of trash you dispose

sure you were kinda good
but you ain't 20 anymore
and its starting to show

seriously dude?
why did we ever talk love?
to end like this

"we have a very strange friendship"

i went to a frat party with the people i work with last night. some 18 year old boys starting hitting on my and my friend ron started singing "mrs. robinson".

its kind of ok to get older.

being confused and heartsick is excellent for losing weight. i'll be 100 pounds if things don't straighten out.

i watched the real world last night. cause i'm rad like that. and the frat boy dude, i can't remember his name, said something that really hit me on a gut level..."i've never hated and loved my life so much at the same time ( Read more... )

"when panic grips your body, and your hearts a hummingbird, raven thoughts blacken your mind till you're breathing in reverse. and all your friends and sedatives mean well but make it worse. every assurance just magnifies the doubt, better find yourself a place to level out ( Read more... )

have you ever taken a ride in a subway car and felt like the tunnel was moving, slipping and sliding by your window, while your car stayed perfectly still ( Read more... )

lots of serious things weighing on my mind lately ( Read more... )

dear ruler of the universe ( Read more... )

well this weekend has been odd, fun but odd. last night madison, kyle, dave, and i went to an art crawl thing in lawrenceville which was really awesome. i got a little drunk on free wine and madison interpreted art. then kyle and madison called it an evening and dave and i went down to dees where i proceeded to ( Read more... )