my life feels like it's recycling through. I always fuck up friendships and move on and find new one's but never really go back to the old one's. Well this time I've recycled through I have my new friends but friends from my past are also becoming part of my present. I don't know why I'm saying this i don't think it's a good or bad thing it's just ( Read more... )

sorry that I left you all hanging but Lee and I of course got back together (what's new ( Read more... )

That's it...it's over...he's gone. Once again I have managed to push the person I love the most away from me. I've done it with my best friends, my teachers, boyfriends, girlfriends, and even my family. I really am all alone. I hate the person that I am. Why can't I just be normal and content? No I always have to ask for more and more because I ( Read more... )

There's something special that happens when a couple goes from having sex to making love. Even after you've fallen in love with someone it doesn't mean you two make love when the need to please arrives ( Read more... )

soooo this morning at 7:45 am I took my drug/alcohol analysis to see if I'm really crazy or not. This will judge how much counseling i'll need and all that. My follow up appointment is tomorrow and is for thirty minutes. Oh did I mention this analysis thing was 60 dollars...yup the money just keeps adding up but I was fully prepared with 385 ( Read more... )

I went journal browsing today since I had a long day to do nothing. I've been doing my thinking again...sitting around online all day can do that to you...and I think that's part of the reason I was so depressed before. I wasn't allowed to do anything or go anywhere i had a curfew (even though I never followed it) I was just very entraped and my ( Read more... )

and yet again I return to livejournal...my home ( Read more... )

haven't been on here in a while. not really sure what's going on in everyone's life but just to update mine in a quickie. i'm dating a guy named lee. i don't live at home n e more.christmas and new years was great but i miss talking to you guys...dunno if you guys have my number since i've had 3 different one's in the past 6 months so here it is ( Read more... )

so i haven't posted in a while. not that I really read this ne more nor do i think n e one else reads this (except for Ceasar even though he says he hates livejournal lmao ( Read more... )

so this won't take long...i'm just really depressed...and sad...and i guess i'll just cry myself a few tears before i go to sleep and be over it in the morning...just felt like writing something down

'night