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No one even knows,
except a few.
And I bet you aren't one of them.

So exhausted... I need to sleep for a year.

I don't find myself to typically be a mean person ( Read more... )

Things feel peaceful right now.
Well, actually the last few days.
I want nothing more for that to last
and for it to become a normal thing.
I want to expect it to always be like this,
it feels so nice and... Normal.
How rare.

Distance...

Mental distance.

I'm scared of the future.

I'm scared to completely trust you.
I don't know how to.

When he calls I just burst into tears of happiness and sadness.
I miss him more than I ever have.
I miss being able to curl up next to him.
I actually miss watching him play video games.
I feel like time is moving so slow,
I know that will change but as of right now
everything is in slow motion.

I want this to be over already.

I keep repeating "I'm not ready for this" over and over,
as if at some point I would be ready.
I will never be ready.

Ever.

Summers over, back to the real world ( Read more... )

Hoping for sunshine, but preparing for rain.