Just as the title says, I'm quite over it. I'm almost convinced that suicide is the answer. I'm too chicken shit to hurt myself. So, I'll just sit here and be miserable. There is no changing it. I am a nice person, yet, no one likes the nice guy. So, what I am supposed to do? Nothing. I've been miserable for quite some time. I've gained 80lbs, lost ( Read more... )

I don't think I have any readers on here, so I am just going to vent how ( Read more... )

It has been some time since I've written in here ( Read more... )

So, this would be an actual entry in the journal. I hardly post in here. I don't know why I don't post more. I always have things bothering me, and I just let them fester inside me like a infectious disease, and then it comes to the boiling point, and just pushes me into a further depression ( Read more... )

Dear Matthew ( Read more... )

So, while I was at work last night, I was really bored, and began to write my thoughts down, and went along with whatever song was playing, so you will see plenty of song titles in this entry. They had me at the most boring post ever... employee parking garage... so, I had time to think about a lot of stuff, and just wrote it down on paper, and ( Read more... )

So, I finally got a job! I know, right? It only took a little over two fucking months! So, I know, I hate the Las Vegas Strip... and that just happens to be where I got a job. haha. I got a job at Treasure Island working in the Security Department, as an Officer, so that's pretty fucking sweet, right? I'm working the Graveyard shift. So yeah, ( Read more... )

So, I don't think I've written a proper entry in a while. I've just been REALLY busy trying to find a job out here ( Read more... )

So, last night was alright, I guess ( Read more... )

So. I was watching television one night and saw something about the lapband procedure. So, I went and checked out the site to see how to qualify. 100 pounds overweight or BMI of 40 or higher. Well, I qualify in both aspects. Should I do it?