there are no words to describe how i feel right now. i just want to get away from this world so bad. i have to go to my dads tommorow. everything is already bad enough and i have to go there. it doesnt make anything feel much better. im just a fuck up. this is my fourth day in a row that i havent smoked weed. i dont really feel the urge to smoke ( Read more... )

yea, last night i told her how i felt and she was really cool about it. i feel so nervous right now. my stomach is in knots. i never thought she would have reacted that way.

goodbye

love,
chris

shit.... thats about the perfect word for how i feel right now. me and holly are over. yesterday was my first day not smoking weed. my dad is making me take a drug test for sure now. that really gay ( Read more... )

well this is my last night at my dads house for a while... so dont call my dads number. tomorrow morning im going to my moms house after i confront my dad about some stuff. i really cant wait to leave this place. i am kinda mad that i probablly wont be able to finish this guitar im re-building. my dad found a gold strat copy in someones garbage. ( Read more... )

i finally got caught by my dad...... yea, i knew it was a matter of time before me or dustin fucked up. im thinking about running away. ive always wanted to do that.

i dont know if you saw the signs but our 1st annual Chris(t) Fes(t) 2006 was fucking crazy. i really enjoyed it. i got to know alot of people a whole lot better. i saw so many firsts for people too. ill never forget it. i was worried that Holly wasnt going to make it because she was telling me about how she got grounded, but she made it so its all ( Read more... )

i hope i live through new years. ha ha. it should be fun. everyone better party this new years. make some macaroni pictures or something. its really gay that school starts monday. i hope im not hungover. na

goodbye

love,
chris(t)

party hard everyone!

love,
Chris(t)

yep, christmas is tommorow. its wierd. i dont even really care that it is christmas. it just doesnt feel like it should be christmas already. i hope i get to see Holly tommorow though. thats really the only thing im worried about right now. ha ha. cody spent the night last night. at my dads house. it was crazy. we went on a bike ride and got some ( Read more... )

hey everyone. im doing really good right now. i just got off the phone with Holly and i feel really excited because i get to see her tommorow. i cant wait. if everything works out like its planned then i will get to hang out with her this weekend and most of next week since we are out of school. i cant stop thinking about her. i love her so much. i ( Read more... )