these last few months have been hell
im barely holding on
when will this end?

girls suck
being sick sucks
being in a bands that progress slowly sucks
having insomnia sucks
having an ear infection sucks

the only things that seem to constantly rule
are
school
and music
and friends

everything else
FUCK IT

Everything is everything.
And you know I'll meet you there.
And I know you'll try.
Now that you know everything will be the same.....

what happens when you really do fall for me?
what happens when you actually care about me?
what happens when you stay with me?

chances are, it will be nice
but no well never know
and im kind of happy about that

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these nights i sit here, and i get to thinking ( Read more... )

im my own black cloud
constantly looming
never content
just a burden
on myself

these nights are so lonely
i miss those times
but hate wanting them back

it would be nice to have someone with me
but noone will suffice

the more and more i think about it
the more i realize
it was a mistake
you were a mistake
thanks for wasting 6 months of my life
bitch

sometimes i just sit here
waiting for something to happen
for something to change

and im let down
i guess i should be use to this