we look past ourselves
our lives
our thoughts
our emotions
and find nothing

we look past our souls
our ambition
our drive
to find apathy

we look past our relationships
our love
our hate
to find solidairty

we look past our grief
to find sadness

So last night was interesting ( Read more... )

i love my life
dont get me wrong
but i want the feeling i had before

lately alot of my friends and my self had have some struggling (like mr.naveda pointed out)

and i think these things go in cylces
but im wondering whens my turn gunna come up
cause this is pretty lame

manhatten beach last night with sean,fes,nick,benji had tons of fun
going to frisco tonight
still dont have a ride

but im gunna have a great time regardless

i dont talk to some people that i did alot before
and it really bumms me out
but right now isnt the time to soak in petty bullshit

so thanks alot guys
i love you all

ceremony
team ramrod
showcase
tonight
friends
what could be better

well maybe one thing
but FUCK IT

ive moved on ( Read more... )

so
im home again
on a saturday night
becuase
i dont know why
today was great
me nick and chipotle
marc was ther eit was tiiiiight

but yet again i sit here and i cant help but think what the fuck

but at this point i really really dont care anymore

I just read something
and iu dont know why
but it really made me feel like shit
i thought i was over it
god damnnit

i wanna do something today texted a few people
and nothing
fuck life right now
peace

im fine
im better
im content
im nothing

SOOOOOOOOOOO ( Read more... )