i wish you could find the same peace.

i'm not depressed at my alcohol consumption. i wish it was less, but i'm happy with my life these days. things are good. I'm a little bit lonely. but on the other hand, i wish i was with everyone i'd ever met. I like the way i feel when i'm drunk, but i don't see why i can't be that way when i'm sober. my ultimate goal in life is to feel/act/want ( Read more... )

i think i realized something. And while perhaps not entirely true, it holds some weight. i wouldn't think to disparage it, it was once a beautiful thing. i think the hesitance to step forward comes from the realization that it gets deep fast. and then tend to overstay my welcome. that's what sucks the swagger out. that impedes the impeller. that's ( Read more... )

I think i used to right this for you. you being who you are. a silent open letter to the past. i don't know why you still cross my mind sometimes.

i'll be the last livejournal holdout. even if it's just a quick whim and a slow whitted comment.

and if there never is any clarity, are we just another animal?

i've got to do this paper thing. but i'm just so out of steam. i should do it now but i think tomorrow it will have to be. perhaps put some miles on ye olde bike now?

perhaps i should have taken a break and tried to go easy for my week off. the bender was fun, but is seeming like a less than perfect idea at the moment. oh well, 3 months.

i need to stop looking at bikes on craigslist.

i got fishbotted or something. interesting