So now its been even longer since ive logged on or legit used live journal.
I look back on the entries and just cant believe how self absorbed i once was.
or atleast thats how it seems now.
still with sean.
still in rochester.
still smoking ciggs and drinking coffee, but also love jd.
was supposed to get married..
not ready anymore.
sept 29 nanny passed
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its been so long. i dont even know how to use this anymore

except us.
soo we did nothing.
he worked during the afternoon.
he came home fixed a computer
i played with his dads cannon ae-1
that i get to borrow.
me and his sister ate pasta
then me and him drove around for a while
and went to bed really late.

there was nothing romantic
just another day.

"i miss you when youre around"

to find a job

and hate life...

you apologized..

silly me thought it was sincere

maybe it was.

maybe her hurting you made you realize

what you did was shitty.

but oh well

all i have to say is,

it sucks doesnt it.

i feel like ive been losing you each night it ends too soon you dont hold me like you used to and your eyes look like theyve seen too much its always some excuse too tired, too obtuse you look so far removed, this time i fear im losing you ( Read more... )

and the milk turned a greyish green ( Read more... )

no job

negative money

5 ciggs left

sanity gone

...it can only get better from here*

ive had to much time on my hands. being jobless and all. i get things done tho. my house is clean. im reading on the road by my good ol'friend jack. i love this book. it makes me want to be able to just go cross country with a few bucks in my pocket.. enough to get food smokes and buses if needed like he did... but then again that was so long ago ( Read more... )