its been awhile since i've been on... sorry... i have met a new guy named shawn.. he's sweet but an ass at the same time.. its hot... he makes me feel alive then he makes me feel like curling up in a ball and dying but no one cares.. the baby is good.. i'm gettin harrassed by a stupid bitch named sarah and yeah i'm changing my cell number so if u ( Read more... )

noah bear and mommy have been home for almost two weeks now... we did alot since he's been home.. got his first pictures done... met lots of people... went to a few doctors appts... met some of our family... met our doggies... he's doing so good and he is making me prouder and prouder everyday... its unreal! everyday when i feed him he looks up at ( Read more... )

Merry Christmas friends of mine!.. Noah bear is doing great.. we are looking forward to going home sometime this week and mommy can't wait! i miss you all and i hope everyone is doing great!

We had our first bottle yesterday!... he did very very well and took in over half of his feeding on his first try!!!!... as soon as we get the bottle bit down and get him off the oxygen we can go home! i'm so proud of my lil noah!

lil noah is doing good... he's trying to get back off that nasty ventilator but we'll have to see how that goes tomorrow... my lil guy has been through sooooo much its unreal... mommy is so proud of him... everyday a new adventure.. but yet its lonely over here... its unreal... but things have their way of working out... love to all...

today my son is a week old... i ended up having him last wednesday by c-section and omg never again will i have one of those!... he's doing well... Noah Orion is his name and he was 7lbs 2oz and 19.7in ... born Nov 23rd at 7:55pm... the labor sucked majorly.. i almost died while i was having my c-section from all the screw ups... the baby had his ( Read more... )

tomorrow i go back to columbus... this appt will determine if they put me in the hospital till the baby is born... i'm scared... i want him born but at the same time i don't want all this bullshit... i have no money and i have no idea how i'm going to manage while i'm out on leave and unable to work... god this sucks... i wish i would of saved my ( Read more... )

i miss my kunak... the only time we talk anymore is when i decide to stalk him at work... i get my hug... my long kiss... and my i'll see you later... Last dr's appt i had last week wasn't too well... they are talking about putting me in the hospital until Noah is born... its crazy.. the fluid build up around him is gettin to the point i can't ( Read more... )

its crazy as hell.. alot of things keep going on.. some good.. .moooooore bad... yeah summer and shawn had their baby early... he's beautiful.. shawn is sweet enough to give me photos.. gave me a new high and something to look forward to when noah gets here... yeah noah is going to be my son's name... it just seems right.. i've had alot of ( Read more... )

lol talk about crazy bullshit... my son's birth defect is extremely rare.. go figure... and on top of that... i have carpal tunnel syndrome in both of my wrists... talk about my luck.. i have to laugh seeing how i fall into the lower percentages of pregnant women...and to top it all off he is sitting breech.. so lets talk pee now talk later right ( Read more... )