yeaaaa.
so i havent updated this is madd long. and a while ago i would have cared but now i dont. volleyball sucks. or at least the girls on jv do. my sced us pretty boring. im happy with it tho. its gonna be an easy year. ummm. yea. thats about it!

yesterday was fun.
street fair all day with steph.
than mels
than the lake ave fair. we went to jessicas mansion after and drank. Pretty fun. kinda what i needed with everything going on. Just a night out with friends.

we smoke
we drink
we do drugs
we're cool.

so everything is shit.

i'm fucking up in school

brothers fucking up at life

i just want like 2 weeks. that all i fucking ask. 14 days with nothing. where i can just sit, and think, and cry, and not have to worry about anything. grades, family, friends. really. friends are the only shit that's working out for me.
its at the point where i don't ( Read more... )

all city concert was last night. was really good considering we played 3 songs and had 6 rehersals. what else is new. it was fun. all the saunders kids wore pink. lol.
i couldn't see my music during the march, the stage was too dark.

after everything mario, marissa,melody,alvin,john,dan, and i all went to friendlys for icecream. mel spilled the ( Read more... )

today was amazing. so funny. wisha washa wu

- bronxville
walking
-cross county
walking
melody's.

and i told dez i hate her =]

werd?

fuck you illness.
die.
i hate you.

i still feel like crap. i should have gone to the doctor on wednesday night but nooo, it can't get much worse can it?

wrong

my head is going to explode
my throat is torn up
i can barely stand
my ears feel like they're going to pop
and i think i might hurl
plus im having got flashes and cold sweats like ms. lasusa.

so im not going to all city again, ( Read more... )

so i'm dying. everyone i know is. we're all sick. everyone in my house is sick and meg and gui were dying in school yesterday. i have a 104 fever [or did earlier], can't breath, my nose is stuffed, my throat hurts, my head is going to explode, and my ears hurt. this sucks.

i really wanted to go to all city but when i almost fell down the stairs i ( Read more... )

so my grandpa's cancer has spread and it's only a matter of time now. it was supposed to be a secret and he didn't want anyone to know, but apperently in my family nothing stays quit for long. he just doesn't know that everyone knows.

i love my grandpa. you can practically see trough his skin, because he's so frail, and you know what he's doing ( Read more... )