Sunrise. 
Eyes still open. 
Thoughts rushing. 
Faster.
Faster. 
Infinite thoughts.
Infinite space and time. 
Infinite longing. 
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The discontent spreads like a disease. 
It's on me. 
Everyone's noticing. 
Absolutely everyone. 
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My heart is heavy. 
Deflated.
I am not the same. 
Change me back. 
I want to be happy again. 

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 Nothing but good memories. 
The present is ever so opposite.
Tears and tears run down my cheeks.
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I think of you. 
Of how we were. 
Of how we are.
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So I do my best to remember how it was.
That's all I want. 
No lies. 
No secrets. 
No sadness. 
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So you and your memories, 
Crawl under my skin. 
I recoil and cringe. 
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You're not what I want.
In every way, 
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 A waste of my time. 
My feelings. 
My thoughts. 
My days. 
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And for what? 
A pat on the head, 
And a couple of kisses.
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Well I see right through you now.
Don't come any closer. 
I'm gone.  
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Tears fall as I remember. 
But it's not real anymore. 
You made me smile. 
Now you make me sick.

Inside out. 
Backwards.
Down the rabbit hole.

Everything but love oozes from your every pore. 
I've had enough of this. 
How did you create me?

It's been a while... stuff's...alright, I guess. I'm tired and bored of pretty much everything. Wooo...summer...

Never have I ever been so afraid. 
Emptiness all around. 
Unbelievable.
This is not who I am. 
This is not who I want to be.
I cannot live up to these standards.
Complete and utter shit.

One time a boy told me my voice reminded him of the wind.

He doesn't exist anymore.