I am more lonely than I have ever been in my life.

I feel like I am wearing thinner and thinner. Nothing I do seems to have a point. Just sorta' running on a wheel.

All efforts to be less depressing fail. :-p It's almost as if I'm TRYING to destroy everything that's less than shitty in my life. Alcohol is not my friend but I utterly fail at socializing without it. But I guess now I fail with it as well. So I guess it's time to stop. There isn't really a point. Haha. "livejournal? What's that!?"

I hate every single aspect of my life.

Yay for drunk internetsing that can be deleted before being seen. :)

Please, anyone
I don't think I can

I don't think I've ever experienced a dream where I actually died. Or at least experienced the moment just before death. My dreams last night were very chaotic and filled with war. In one I was trying to get...somewhere...with my mother. we had to cross a field and there was a tank. We slid down into a ditch but she just wasn't fast enough. I ( Read more... )

I think it's time to find out if I really am a raging alcoholic or not. Well I know I'm not a RAGING alcoholic. I don't drink every day and I can go a week with no problem without drinking. I just get so BORED. But I'm quitting for a while. I imagine I'll be much more boring and less ridiculous. And more of a hermit. Here goes. How long can I ( Read more... )

I am the engineer of my own destruction. I am the succubus stroking my evil seduction.

I hate pretty much everything.