And again in life I'm lost. He's sooooo worried about being a push over that he makes himself distant and pain bearing. I don't write anymore, I don't read anymore, and I certainly don't feel like me anymore. Reading an old friend's diary has made me miss who i never had the chance to be. If I keep on running they'll be nothing left to run with. ( Read more... )

so tonight for about the forth in a row im locked up in my house trying to battle off this cold, I think I ma y have starte o win the battle, my sence of smell is slowly returning. Im cuddled up with my pup it is grand. Its odd, tonight i gave two of my guy friends rlationship advice.....why is it im so good at giving it but so bad at exacuting it ( Read more... )

Son,dont get involved in theatre in NYC.

...well up state not in the city. JOhn Lennon and I ventured up state for this holiday its been "nice". When getting off the train jonny fell between the train and the track it was scary.

Right now it three o clock. I'm sitting in the brooklyn loft/studio of a respectable man after a long night of the ushual. Not of someone who is a household name not of someone who sells out huge arenas. Someone with the passion the life of music and what it can do to your very being. I've been in deep thought and deep conversation with this man ( Read more... )

Right now it three o clock. I'm sitting in the brooklyn loft of a respectable man. Not of someone who is a household name not of someone who sells out huge arenas. Someone with the passion the life of music and what it can do to your very being. I've been in deep thought and deep conversation with this man since ten this morning I never wished more ( Read more... )

Ok. smoke drifting form the end of a clove that has grown long and grey with ashes. Giggling about the idea of cheating my future with omeone who I’ve never met making my life more worth telling in a story book. Fretting then thinking its all exsperiance. I don’t know if the ones I should look up to are telling the truth. Having someone say that ( Read more... )

Night. Wandering. Alone. I feel more at home on these streets, with the garbage with the rats, with these thoughts in these hours more then ever. I dread winter cause I may be homeless again with out this sanity ( Read more... )

Last night was like visiting a past life only the “present” was not on will, more so circumstance or even known at the time to myself. It’s like I’ve forgotten. I was almost brought to tears sitting in Cait’s kitchen so late as I’ve done a hundred times before. All there was to speak of was John Lennon I wanted to poke my own eyes out. Everything ( Read more... )

OK. So here we have it....I am an official college drop out or at least thats the feel of it, after I handed in my paper work. So here it goes. I left Purchase ....well let me start from the begining. I left Applebees ( Read more... )