Comments | chubgrrl: Gaining weight...

chubgrrl

Gaining weight...

Jun 21, 2006 19:18

Not been trying to gain weight, however as of today I was up to 164.5. This is the heaviest I have ever been in my life. In terms of the fetish, I liked seeing that number on the scale. But, I wish that I could reverse this trend. Ever since I became aware of being a feedee a few years back, it seems like the weight gain has been inevitable. I have ( Read more... )

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fre12003 June 25 2006, 06:10:04 UTC

Aww...it sounds like your struggling with the same thing alot of people who have this fetish have to deal with...that doesnt make it any better though! It is difficult to balance your desires with a partner who may not share your interest, as well as to be alarmed/aroused by your lack of control/ growth. I can't offer you any good advice, since that is exactly what I struggle with as well...but I can offer my empathy! whatever thats worth...
still Im sure other people will pipe in with good advice and comments....however im sure most of them will be suggestions to let yourself indulge!;)

chubgrrl June 26 2006, 16:15:01 UTC

Yeh, thanks for your note...my partner is not turned OFF by my fetish; if I were to become more comfortable with it and ask her to go there with me more often, she probably would. It's just that I am so ambivilant (sp?) about it. You hit the nail on the head that lack of control and growth is both alarming and arousing, and I wish I could just find a way to balance it out. The idea and reality of gaining weight is the biggest part of my sexuality, but at the same time, I am also an active, outdoors person who likes exercise and likes to be in shape and in control of my body. Anyway....I appreciate knowing I am not the only one who struggles with this...seems like many are able just embrace this fetish whole-heartedly and don't look back. :-)

electroinfecto June 29 2006, 06:09:33 UTC

Honey, we all struggle with this... it's just that some of us talk about it more than others. Alot of those people are just kidding themselves. (Not all, of course.)

You do know it's very possible to be both fat and fit, right? Even if you gain weight, don't let it stop you from being an active, outdoors person who enjoys exercise.

chubgrrl June 29 2006, 17:07:26 UTC

Thanks!! Yes, I do know it's possible to be fat and fit--I am both right now. It's just that I am fitter when I am 20 pounds lighter. Makes it not quite so freaking hard to get up the hill on my bike. ;-)

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chubgrrl June 27 2006, 17:19:22 UTC

Hi Zonker-glad you wrote. I thought that I might not get any responses to this post since it wasn't exactly gaining-positive. You had good ideas and insight--I do think that I really can't deny gaining/feeding stuff completely; plus now that I am aware of it, it makes me feel like I am denying who I am, something I'm working on not doing in many other aspects of my life. It probably WOULD just lead to more weight gain--it's hard to fight your desires--I think a lifetime of struggling with my weight was probably in part caused because I HAVE these desires, and they were completely unconscious for a long time. So to be aware of them, and not supress them, at least on occasion, might be the way to go. Why not have fun with it, since it IS very enjoyable (if weird). I guess that I will just keep on keeping active and trying to balance this out. :-)

fre12003 July 19 2006, 03:23:47 UTC

As usual Zonker has good advice! But it sounds like your looking at it in a helathy way....on the one hand not diving into things more than yu feel comfortable with, and on the other not turning your back on something you clearly enjoy. I guess with you its about finding a balance. For me its that I'd like to start gaining a bit! Regardless, excercise is always important and if you keep doing your biking you'll stay fit and not really lose control over your weight.

anonymous July 19 2006, 19:37:23 UTC

Your journal is pretty sexy and informative. I'm a 26 yr old FA. I like my girls plump and gaining. Usually 190-200 is my upper range. What I find so hot about your journal is how you describe your "Struggle". I especially like the aspect of you getting on the scale and being surprised every time is shows that you're getting fatter.

Do what makes you happy. But just know that there are a lot of guys out there (me being one of them) who find women soft/round and willing to eat and enjoy extremely sexy!

-AC
ac18712001@yahoo.com

chubgrrl July 20 2006, 00:10:06 UTC

Hey AC ( ... )

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chubgrrl October 20 2006, 16:58:26 UTC

Hi Zonker ( ... )

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hmm longforgotten99 October 22 2006, 07:50:42 UTC

dichotomy of thoughts...i like that. i know what its like. i share a similiar struggle. inside my head always these conflicting thoughts. one part of me would like to embrace it, but always the other part doesn't want to. it's tough. i haven't really ever talked about it to anyone so it's a little different than your case, but i do know what its like and it really sucks. i think it will always be this way.