so...this is going to be long (maybe) but my mind is a jumble and i just need to write. so ok. here goes ( Read more... )

Welp, just yesterday I went to a doctors appointment and was able to ask whatever questions I wanted to regarding HRT. I had a good idea of things I suppose, but it was good to have it officially known. It was definitely a very real moment, like here I am on the very real doorstep to acquiring estrogen and beginning the transition towards looking ( Read more... )

well, back here to tell you about another series of dreams i had this am. pretty standard intensity-wise but they finished rather strangely, rather peculiarly ( Read more... )

this is nearly my 20 year anniversary on this site! holy cow! obviously havent updated super regularly but still. 20 years of anything is pretty wild. I was just 18 when I posted my first entry! anyhow, without further adieu....my first post of 2024...

Well this last night, had some pretty vivid dreams (pretty standard of course) but what was ( Read more... )

lately ive come to realize that by default, dreams just tend to be wild by nature, as in, has anyone ever started off telling you about a dream by saying: "so i had this really normal dream last night...." the answer is: heck no! so from here on out, i want everyone to just assume each dreambi write up is going to be crazy. well, anyway, while this ( Read more... )

So I've recently been trying this thing when I sleep. It's basically to distract me from letting my mind wander to those dark places. I really had no idea where I'd be taken off to but the first night I tried, I was transported to a beach. And it wasn't just any beach, it was somewhere out here, I'm almost certain. I don't know if such a place ( Read more... )

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the dream machine has not been quiet as i have, from these pages, for so long. much has happened. but now is not the time to write about life changes, yet, as there have been many significant changes in the last few months. later, i promise. in any case, i would like very much to simply write for you, another dream, another, long dream. and so, it ( Read more... )

I am going to attempt to write and get things cleared out and sorted in my own head. there's a lot in there. i don't claim that it will make sense, but i need to do it. so here goes. deep breath. ready? ok, let's dive down together ( Read more... )