i hate that i love him. i've been dealing with his games for a year off again on again. and i put up with so much crap you'd think i'd be ready to call it quits ignore his phone calls delete his emails but no i can't let go i can't give in i look at him and see the man i want to spend the rest of my life with i hate it cause i can't wait forever ( Read more... )

i'm back again and this is about mike just like the last time his statements weren't sincere i wish he'd grow up and either commit to me or leave me alone but i can't bring myself to give him those choices it scares me to completely burn that bridge. i don't know what to do

i'm so sick of crying. after all the stuff i've been through i have never been so heart broken i just want this feeling to go away

i don't know what to do anymore every relationship ends cause i compare them to someone else and this person is not really talking to me anymore. i just feel so defeated after the month i just had. i'm ready to give up on everything.

i'm horrible i'm here with my bf but my hearts in texas.

the distance is dangerous cause this heart does not grow fonder but breaks apart piece by piece each day your gone this loneliness is leaving me hollow without you here there is just a void going unfilled i don't know what to do i'm at a loss with little energy to fix this it's your choice to be gone not mine

maybe the victim impact panel had some great impact on me but in the middle of the night i woke up with this feeling like i lost someone close to me and it's that feeling of your world ending cause you'll never see them again. and it's weird but i sense it's a male. i don't know if it makes sense or anything but it's very overwhelming

first friday night i went out with my ex when he walked out to my car i was like what the hell was i thinking ever dating this man pretty much i was annoyed by him the whole night. we got in the car after the movie and i told him i finally got closure and that i had no feelings for him. it was a big deal for me cause alot of ppl thought me hanging ( Read more... )

yesterday i received a bridal shower invitation and it was for sabrina i had no freaking clue her and jack were engaged i just saw her on my birthday and nothing was said. and shannon and will got married like 3 weeks ago. is everyone getting married? i know i'm being impatient and over dramatic but i feel as i am getting older i'm beginning to ( Read more... )

i'm a freaking horrible person he tells me he got laid off and i'm excited thinking maybe he'll have to move back home and i'll have my boy back.