Been trying to sleep for 2 hours, but the tossing, turning, and panting of my step brother going through withdrawl (he is trying to get over a Crack addiction) was keeping me awake. About 10 minutes ago as I felt the sandman's grasp a text message from Erica (we broke up a week ago) comes to me and she told me she kissed a boy tonight. She is ( Read more... )

Tonight is for me. I have a bunch of beers by my side and a meal I cooked for myself. Cooked up some chicken cutlet, cut it up into little pieces, put some olive oil, red wine, and a bunch of spices into a frying pan, but the chicken in and added some spaghetti. I have some video games going on and I do not want to be disturbed, I don't care if ( Read more... )

I only come on here when something has stirred up some sort of emotion, which is unusual for someone who rarely shows emotion ( Read more... )

Been fighting with Erica for the past 24 hours. I don't know how that is going anymore ( Read more... )

I hate so much right now. I want to cry and I can't. I tried listening to every sad song on my Ipod to help the process and nothing. I want to cry. I just want to get all of my emotions out of me right now. I have been bottling them up for so long that I don't know how to let them out any more ( Read more... )

One of my classes happened to be cancelled today. I spent the time watching Metalacolypse...10 episodes worth of it.

So here I am again. I only come here to be emotional because I am too busy wearing a mask for my friends. I can't remember the last time I truly opened up to anyone. I always hold things back and that is if I open up at all. I tried opening up to myself the other day and couldn't even tell myself what has been bothering me. I still catch ( Read more... )

When I was younger I use to pretend that I was 15 and was accomplished. I had become an amazing rock star. Childish dreams, I know, but they were nice. When 15 approached and still nothing I began to dream that I was 18 and away at college when I met up with a few people and started a band with them that rocked the nation. Again, more childish ( Read more... )

LOOK AT WHAT MY GIRLFRIEND DREW ME!!!


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So, it's only a week into school and I already feel drained. I have jumped into a lot of work, class and not class related. My sleeping is all out of whack and my eating is all out of whack. I feel dead. My eyes constantly feel like they want to bleed and I don't want to be here. I want to be back in South Jersey already and not worrying about ( Read more... )