I just don't know how to react to everything right now. One part of me is very realaxed, one part is feeling very vindictive, one hurt, and the other is to busy being happy and focused on me and what's going on to care ( Read more... )

There really isn't to much that is new right now. The people who know whats going on...know what's going on, and that is progressivly taking steps into a downward direction. However I've gotten to the point where I keep busy and take a bubble bath every night while reading my new books, sipping on a beer and listening to salsa music, and it helps ( Read more... )

So last night I was sitting on the couch half drunk and drugged...I could hear the waterfall in the backyard and really wasn't paying attention to anything in particular Then something happened that hasn't happened in 16 years...from the room next to me I heard my dad play his guitar. It was almost instant that I felt better. I felt like I was five ( Read more... )

Here is how I honestly feel ( Read more... )

I know your watching

I am tired of this shit, I'm tired of being scared of her and wiating on you. I'm tired of just sitting around waiting for you to call when you feel like it and I am tired of you being selfish all the time ( Read more... )

I have decided that if I lose enough weight (100 lbs) that I will call some magazines and be a before and after person....it'll be cool.

Oh, I have bangs now too....and I love them

FIGHT THE SKY ( Read more... )

Seriously do I look like a becon call girl? I'm in no mood to be running all over the place when I have very little gas, and I'm freakin tired...you wanted some space and I get that your tired and worn out right now and just want someone around but if you can't keep me for the night I'd rather get sleep here and actually spend some real time ( Read more... )

I am so sick right now....sick, sick, sick....and when I'm not sick I'm tired. I am sick and tired...

*hurmph*