its been way too long and forever since ive written in this thing. lately the only thing i did all summer was get faded and party. the girl ive been thinking about seeing is irene. but she doesnt want to date someone that smokes and i dont wanna quit. i love her yes. but i still have feelings for jessica... my jess. i wanted to date her so bad and ( Read more... )

im so scared.. no. TERRIFIED! to go back to sleep, this whole last 2 weeks ive had nothing but night terrors. horrible ones.

last nite especially. one of my most closest best friends in the world died... stef. i cried in my dream.. i woke up in tears, i cant go back to sleep, i wont.

no matter what i do or what i say.. it never helps or gets better. thanks for nothing assholes

then again it could be about me?...

i hope... but i didnt talk to her for that long. sigh...

sirry abiyt the wshitty writing.,. a lil buazzedd of vodka ( Read more... )

what am I doing...?

Tonite. Last nite. Cant begin to describe.. But amazing. Booze, cigs, friends and her... I dont even know what to say or where to begin, cept im feeling incredible, cuddling and sleeping and loving, best things in life, and i dont know where im going with this but i just love how everthing turned out, it was just amazing... i loved every moment she ( Read more... )

I'm so terribly sorry, Truly, I am. From the deepest down bottom of my heart, im sorry, please feel better. Things will get better. There are plenty out there, me you and chris are going through about the same shit rite now.. of course it hurts... it always does.. but we gotta be there for eachother, and keep eachother alive.. things will get ( Read more... )

FUCK!!!!

Like I said, ive givin up, but the feeling wont go away. It still hurts so much and nothing makes it better or makes it go away... I do have my friends...

But my friends are only a medication...

I need a cure...

Someone, Somewhere, find me a cure...?