The prints of its handlers 1a
Fic Title: The prints of its handlers part 1 Timestamp to Alaska
Author: cillab42
Fandom/Genre: RPS
Pairing(s): Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 22k
Warnings: underage (Jared is 16) a/b/o, werewolves, bottom!jared, mentions of mpreg,
Summary: Jared has accepted his role as Jensen's mate until he found out he's left out a few details. Like pregnancy. Thanks masja_17 for the beta. Any mistakes foun are my own.
Jared and Jensen belong to themselves just borrowing their likeness.
Jensen was hiding something from him. What, Jared wasn’t sure but over the past few weeks since their mating, their bond had become stronger and stronger and he could sense all of his mate’s emotions. What he was sensing now was a mixture of happiness and worry.
The happiness he understood but he racked his brain as to what could cause that kind of worry. Jensen was so worried that he would go running without taking Jared with him after weeks of never leaving him alone.
Oh God, had Jensen decided that Jared wasn’t supposed to be his mate after all and he was running to get away from him?
Jared shook his head at that thought because he knew that couldn’t be true. His body still throbbed from the way Jensen took him repeatedly during the night.
The problem wasn’t during the night it was in the morning when they woke; or rather when Jensen woke early and was gone before Jared was awake. It felt as though Jensen was disgusted by him and couldn’t face him.
Even on the first morning after being claimed by an angry Jensen, they ate breakfast together and had each morning since no matter how early before Jensen left to check his traps. But now Jensen sneaks out without so much as a good-bye kiss leaving Jared to his solitary meal.
Once he’s finished his breakfast, there isn’t much for Jared to do. His satellite classes won’t start for another week and the problem with Jensen seems to be giving him an artistic block. Because of the problems with Jensen all he can do is stare at the breathtaking views because he cannot capture them on canvas.
It wasn’t just this silent disagreement with Jensen that was aiding his artistic block. Each time he tried to paint he stopped in favor of gathering blankets and some of Jensen’s clothes and placing them in the spare bedroom. Just yesterday Jensen was looking for his favorite hoodie and found it there.
It irritated Jared that Jensen had moved it but he just replaced it with another article of Jensen’s clothing. When Jensen asked why he was taking his clothes, Jared didn’t have an answer, he just knew that he needed them. Besides it gave him something to do for a while.
Because Jensen moved the hoodie, Jared decided to move his collection of things where Jensen couldn’t find them, outside in an old tree. There were pockets of old growth forest near the house and in his explorations, Jared found a hollowed out one he could fit his large body into with ease.
Yesterday he tried to get Jensen to take him along to check the traps but Jensen went all growly and protective (about what Jared’s still not sure) that Jared gave in. He’s called his mom and filled her in on what’s happening. Well everything except that he’s a werewolf and mated to the werewolf who turned him.
Jared knew that it would be some time before Jensen came back from checking his traps, and after breakfast there wasn't much for him to do. Wanting to get past the block Jared grabbed his sketch pad, put on his coat and went on the deck and made an attempt to capture the beauty of the Denali mountain range.
The first time Jared saw this view it took his breath away and he thought that over time it would just become a part of the scenery but so far that wasn’t the case. It was the second most beautiful thing he’d ever seen. Jensen was the first.
He wasn't sure how long he'd last in the cold, but it seems to be what he needed to jumpstart his desire to paint again because his fingers moved with ease as he captured the view before him. But when he looked at the finished work, it wasn't the mountainous view that he’d captured, it was Jensen.
It was the look of disdain that his mate had been giving him as of late, except that if he looked closer it wasn't disdain, it was worry.
Why was Jensen worried about him?
That question plagued him all afternoon. As far as Jared could tell, all was well with the two of them, but the furrowed brow and the deep crinkles next to Jensen’s eyes told him otherwise.
Jared spent the rest of the afternoon trying to figure out a way to address his worries. He began to prepare dinner, a hamburger casserole. It was a recipe that his mother had taught him, simple but good and above all, it was filling and Jensen seemed to like it as much as he did.
That evening when Jensen was making his way home, Jared could smell the sourness from worry the closer Jensen got to home. Jared was removing the casserole from the oven when he felt warm arms encircling his waist as Jensen buried his nose into Jared's neck.
"Hey, baby," Jensen greeted, "did you have a good day?"
That one kiss almost made Jared forget his agenda, to find out why Jensen was so worried and it would have been easy to do. The pheromones Jensen was sending out almost covered up that sour smell and all Jared could think of was fuck me fill me up with your babies.
That thought made him blush and push Jensen away. For some reason each time Jensen fucked him, he pretended that it would make him pregnant. If Jensen knew what he was thinking, he might think that he got a defective mate.
"Yeah," Jared half lied. It wasn't bad per se, it was that he spent it worrying and now that
Jensen was here he still wasn’t so sure he wanted the answers.
Just as he could feel Jensen’s mood, Jensen could feel his and it must have showed on his face, because now Jensen was more worried than before.
Once Jared sat the hot casserole on the table, Jensen turned Jared towards him, took a hold of Jared's chin and looked him in the eye and asked, “Why are you lying to me Jared? We promised no secrets, so tell me what's wrong."
The statement made Jared angry because he wasn’t the on keeping secrets, Jensen was, and
Jared let him know this.
"That’s right Jensen we did, but you have been keeping shit from me. Why don't you tell me what's wrong and we’ll figure it out together?”
Sighing, Jensen leaned forward and gave Jared a quick peck on the lips, "There's nothing wrong, Jared I think that it’s fantastic news but I’m not sure how you’ll take it.”
“Take what Jensen?”
“At first I thought that you knew and wanted to be sure, but there were no tests and I’m pretty sure at this point that you haven’t talked to Hillarie, but now I know that you don’t know.”
“Know what, Jensen?”
“That you’re pregnant,” Jensen exhaled.
“I’m a boy, I can’t get pregnant,” Jared said as though Jensen was stupid.
“You’re an Omega,” Jensen replied as though that explained everything.
At Jensen’s response, Jared thought about all of the changes that his body has gone through over the past three weeks. Injuries that should have taken months to mend were healed overnight, and then there was the knotting. He knew that dogs knotted in order to keep their seed inside their mate to make sure that they would father her pups and Jensen knotted him.
As that thought settled in his mind, his stomach began to gurgle and he only just made it to the bathroom before throwing up.
He heard Jensen coming towards him with intentions of comforting him, but Jared didn’t want his comfort right now, so when Jensen was at the door of the bathroom, Jared took his foot and kicked the door closed.
With the waves of anger that he felt coming through that bond, for a moment Jared thought that Jensen was going to knock the door down but he didn’t. The waves of anger changed to sorrow and for a while Jared considered opening the door and reassure Jensen that he was okay, but then he remembered.
Pregnant!
All of this talk about mates and bond, alphas and omegas no one said a fucking thing about babies and that fact that he could have one. Men don’t get pregnant so it never occurred to Jared to worry about it.
Oh God how was he going to deal with this? There was no way that he could go visit his parents or have them come visit him. Hell, it was going to be hard enough to explain Jensen let alone a pregnancy.
Once he felt that his stomach was settled, Jared sat down with his back against the cast iron claw-foot tub and began to think about what he knew about the lore of werewolves. Never had he read about males being able to bear kids, but then he’d never read about werewolves in a non-fictional setting.
“Jared, talk to me. Please!” Jensen begged from the other side of the door.
He was not ready to talk, not yet. Instead of answering, he sent his feelings along the bond to let Jensen know that he was not ready. At first he thought that Jensen was going to ignore him, but a few minutes later he heard him leave and it was then he allowed himself to cry.
Jensen wanted to run. He wanted to run until the last few moments were gone, giving him back his bubbly, happy Jared. He knew that his mate was going to be freaked out at the idea of being pregnant, but he hadn’t expected this reaction.
Omegas were such affectionate beings who lived to nurture that it was a shock to see him cry at the thought of being pregnant. He knew that the idea of being pregnant would be foreign to Jared, but he had no idea that it would be soul destroying.
For the rest of the evening Jensen fiddled around the house and spent some time in his smaller cabin under the guise that he needed to finish tanning his hides. The hides needed to be done, but what he was in fact doing was allowing Jared to have the time alone that he needed. He knew that Jared was not going to come to terms with being pregnant overnight, but Luna willing he’d be at the point where he would talk to Jensen so that they could make plans.
Even if-no when Jared came around, there was still Jared’s family to consider. There were so many things that just couldn’t be explained away. In reality Jensen was eighty-three years old, but according to the government he was thirty. While still not an octogenarian, by legal standards he was too old to touch Jared let alone make babies with someone who is not supposed to have the equipment to accomplish that feat.
When he returned to the house, Jensen searched for Jared, and when he saw that the door to their bedroom was closed, he stood outside for a minute before turning the handle to go in. It was locked. He rattled it to let Jared know that he was there, but there was no response from the other side of the door.
Now Jensen felt like crying.
He’s not sure how long he stood outside the door waiting for Jared to let him into the bedroom, but he never did. He understood that Jared was upset, but they had to talk to work this out. If he wanted to he could be through the door in seconds, but that wouldn’t help the situation.
He walked back to the kitchen to try to figure out how to fix the problem, but he didn’t know what to do. Instead of pacing through the house waiting for Jared to come out of the room he undressed in a rush and ran out into the woods. Once there he threw his head back and howled out his frustration.
Jensen’s call of distress was soon answered by his friends. He had only just let out the first mournful wail when he was surrounded by his friends. Most people would think that as alphas the group wouldn’t be close, but they were.
Their pack was small, only about forty or so members and unless it was fighting for the right to mate, they were close and Jensen couldn’t remember the last time there was any dissension among them.
“What’s wrong, Jensen?” Jeff asked “is it Jared?”
Giving the group a watery smile that didn’t reach his eyes Jensen told them, “Jared’s pregnant.”
“Then why the fuck are you so sad?” Chris asked. “You should be at home helping him make his den and getting ready to become a father.”
“Jared is freaking out about this and is angry that I didn’t tell him that he could get pregnant.”
“Jensen,” Jeff shook his head in disappointment, “You should have told him sooner.”
“Yeah, perhaps I should have, but I just knew that this was going to be his reaction and I just wanted to have something good before it all fell apart.”
“Perhaps Hillarie could go talk to him,” Jeff suggested, “it worked before.” He reminded Jensen alluding to when his mate explained to Jared what becoming a werewolf entailed.
“This is different Jeff. Hillarie is a woman so she’s supposed to have children.”
“What about Steve?” Chris offered.
“Or Mike,” Tom suggested his mate.
“Even though they’ve given birth, neither of them are pregnant now so I’m not quite sure if he’s going to believe, but if I need to I’ll let you know.”
“You boys are ignoring the obvious,” their pack Alpha, Jim Beaver, said. “Jensen you’ve got to take your pelts to Nome, take him to the pack doctor and let him take a pregnancy test.”
Jensen liked that idea. It would be a fruitful trip because while in Nome they would also need to start looking for a person that they could present as a surrogate. That’s the thing about these modern times, when their child was born they will have to provide proof that they didn’t just steal someone’s child. They would need to provide a birth certificate and proof of adoption and a surrogate was the only way to provide those things.
Now that he had a game plan, Jensen needed to go home and convince Jared to talk to him so that he could put everything in motion. The run back to the house cleared his head enough to give him an idea of how to sweeten the pot.
Jared lay in the bed that he’s been sharing with Jensen for the past three weeks. Since the first night that Jensen claimed him everything in this bed has always been good, but now he lay there wondering if it had all been a lie.
He touched his hand to his stomach and tried to feel the evidence that Jensen was telling the truth, that he was pregnant but he felt nothing. Not only was his belly not rounded but neither had he had any other pregnancy symptoms. There was no throwing up or weird cravings or anything else out of the ordinary.
But Jensen said that he was pregnant and despite the lack of evidence he was sure that Jensen was right and he didn’t know how to deal with that.
Despite the fact that he was upset at the prospect of being pregnant (how was the baby supposed to get out of his body?) a part of him was thrilled about the thought of a baby and that made him angrier at Jensen. That information should have been given before he decided to let Jensen claim him. Jared let his anger have free reign as he swatted away the voice that said that he would have let Jensen have him even if he had known.
As he lay there he thought about the inevitability of this happening. He knew about the heats, that he was going to have them every three months and the chance of him getting pregnant was very real, but he’d have liked to have been given the choice. Perhaps there was birth control, something that would have given him time before he became pregnant.
It would be so easy to unlock the door and listen as Jensen tried to talk his way out of this mess. He smiled as he thought how cute it was to watch the big tough alpha blush his way through an apology. Jared was so lost in his memory that he almost missed the sound of the door closing as Jensen left.
He didn’t miss the hurt that came through the bond a few minutes later though. It hurt so bad that it made him cry. The only thing that made him cry harder was a few minutes later when the pain stopped and he knew that someone else was comforting his alpha.
He lay there and listened for Jensen to return, and when he did he sniffed the air to see what kind of comfort Jensen had sought. The only scent he could detect was that of other alphas one of whom was Jeff and that gave him comfort. Jensen was well established and that could mean that he had lovers stashed in the bush who knew more than a just turned sixteen-year-old.
Once he was satisfied that Jensen hadn’t gone to another Omega, Jared unlocked the door. When Jensen entered, Jared threw back the covers inviting him into the bed. They would have to talk, but in the morning, but tonight Jared needed the comfort of his alpha before he could sleep.
The smell of bacon and coffee woke him this morning telling him that either he’d awoke earlier than usual or Jensen was running late. A quick glance at the bedside clock told him it was the latter so Jared padded into the kitchen before Jensen could leave.
“Are you still mad at me?” Jensen asked as he placed a plate of food in front of Jared.
“Yes,” Jared answered as he bit into a slice of toast.
“Then tell me what I have to do to fix this Jared,” Jensen repeated the words Jared used on him the morning after he’d claimed Jared.
The raw emotion that was coming through the bond from Jensen was almost overwhelming and made Jared want to give in, but he couldn’t just yet. He could forgive Jensen for not telling him that he could get pregnant. It felt as though something was clawing at his mind, telling him to kneel before Jensen and beg for forgiveness, but Jared fought it.
No, Jared wasn’t the one who was wrong, that honor belonged to Jensen.
By that evening the pair were dancing around one another. In the end the not speaking got to Jensen and he went to his cabin. He told Jared it was to finish his pelts and check the airplane, but Jared knew it was more to get away from him.
All day Jensen poured his emotion through their bond and Jared was developing a major headache trying to fight it and then without warning it was gone leaving Jared questioning what that meant. Once Jensen walked out of the door Jared couldn’t sense his mate anymore and he felt lost. As much as it hurt getting Jensen’s feelings pouring through their bond, it hurt even worse when he couldn’t.
Jensen was at the cabin and all of a sudden nothing and after a while it made him think that something was wrong. Just when the panic began to set in, Jared felt Jensen through the bond and calmed down. It wasn’t much, almost as though Jensen put out a feeler to test Jared’s emotions, but it was enough.
“Jared,” Jensen called out to him.
Grateful for the connection, for a moment Jared forgot that he was angry with his mate and went to greet him with an eagerness that should have been embarrassing, but when he saw his mate give a small smile and a glance at Jared’s stomach, the anger came back and he stopped short.
Jensen left an important bit of information out about him turning so he was not going to forgive him so easily, so instead of answering him, he stared at his mate like a spoiled child. He knew that he should talk this out, and they would but on Jared’s terms.
Jared crossed his arms and waited until Jensen got the message that he was not going to answer before continuing to speak. For a second Jared was hit with a wave of sorrow through the bond and made him feel guilty until Jensen spoke.
“I need for you to pack for a couple of days, because you are going with me to Nome.”
Jared didn’t want to speak but how else was he going to inform this tyrant that he was not going with him.
“I’m not going anywhere with you,” Jared spat at him. “Is this where you dump me off with someone now that you’ve made me into a freak?”
“What the hell are you talking about Jared? I’m - I know that you have every reason to be mad, but to accuse me of something like that isn’t fair, Jared.”
“You’re right I didn’t trust you. While you’re gone I can stay with Hillarie and Jeff…”
Jared didn’t get to finish the sentence because Jensen was suddenly in his face, “No you will not stay with them, you are coming with me and you will be ready at first light in the morning.”
If this was his parents making the command Jared would buck against their authority and dig in to go against their decision, but when Jensen issued the order that he was going. It was something about the low timbre of his Alpha’s voice that had him fighting to stop from bearing his neck to his alpha. There wasn’t even a thought of saying no.
Muttering to himself, Jared went to their room and packed a bag. He didn’t even know how long they were going to be gone. He’d listened to Jensen talk about getting to the fur dealers warehouse and guessed that they would be gone for two-three days at the most.
Once he was packed Jared prepared for bed. Last night was lonely and he didn’t want that again. He wouldn’t let Jensen touch him intimately, but he would be welcome in their bed.
After showering and dressing for bed, Jared left the door to the bedroom open, and smiled as Jensen joined him under the covers.
The next morning Jared woke to the sound of Jensen moving through the house. There was not a big breakfast this morning, just some frozen biscuits and coffee. Jared looked for his bag but couldn’t find it.
“It’s already packed,” Jensen informed him. “Just waiting on you.”
Outside Jared looked for their transportation but there was no vehicle waiting for them. Not even the snowmobiles.
“How are we getting there?” Jared asked. “Is Jeff coming for us?”
“No,” Jensen said and walked out to the huge detached garage in the back of the house. Jared had seen the place may times but had never gone inside. If he had he’s sure that he would have noticed the plane Jensen kept there.
Guessing that this was their transportation, Jared stopped short, “Is this thing safe to fly?”
Once again Jared felt bad about the sarcasm when he felt the wave of hurt that came across the bond.
“I would never place my family in jeopardy,” Jensen assured Jared. “I have taken every precaution to make sure that this plane runs safely or else I wouldn’t fly in it.”
“Your mate,” Jared corrected him, “There is no family because I. Am. Not. Pregnant!”
Jared watched in satisfaction as Jensen bit back the retort. In the time that they have been together, Jared knew that his mate had a sharp tongue and wasn’t afraid to use it. Except with him. Jared was sure that there was a time when Jensen would lose his temper and turn on him but he hadn’t gotten there yet.
“I have never lied to you Jared, never! Don’t give me that shit about lying by omission because after that first night you were carrying my pup and nothing can change that.”
“Don’t be so sure,” Jared mumbled.
“What the fuck does that mean?” Jensen snarled, “Are you planning to end this pregnancy?”
And now he knows why Amell gave in so quickly, because to have Jensen turn that anger onto him was scary. He might be a werewolf now but he was sure that if came down to it, Jensen would win any fight between them.
“Well?” Jensen demanded.
“How can I get rid of something that doesn’t even exist?” Jared asked defiantly as he held his stomach protectively.
He didn’t believe that he really was pregnant, but the answer must have appeased Jensen because he nodded and completed his checks and started the plane.
The flight to Nome was long and quiet, the only sound was the noise from the plane’s engine.
Jared had thought that being in the cramped space for hours would have made Jensen try to force a conversation, but there was nothing and that hurt as well. It seemed that Jensen didn’t care enough to want to talk.
It felt like that except every now and then there was feeling that came over the bond that told him that Jensen wanted to talk but was scared to. How could Jensen, his big strong alpha be scared to talk to him? Each time Jared tried to delve into those emotions, they were gone.
It reminded him of when Chad used to chase dandelion seeds and whenever they got close the wind would blow them out of reach.
When they reached Nome Jensen had a friend waiting for him to help unload the plane and drive them to the furriers. Whenever Jared tried to help the men gently pushed him aside, treating him like a small child.
Or a pregnant woman.
It was fascinating watching his mate haggle over the condition and the price of the furs. Jared had wanted to ask questions about the process, but he was afraid that Jensen would think him silly or just refuse to answer.
Years of trapping made Jensen an expert and he walked away with more money than the buyer had wanted to spend. After the transaction was complete Jensen piled them into the car his friend Ty Olson had provided for them.
Once they were in the vehicle, Jensen cleared his throat and said, “I made an appointment for you with a local doctor.” He held his hand up to stop Jared from interrupting, “As are most of the people in this city, he’s a werewolf and specializes in were medicine.”
Werewolf doctor? How much more about the life of werewolf does he need to know about? The things he was learning he’s never seen in a movie or on television. He turns to look at Jensen and wants to ask him more questions but does remember that he is mad at him, so he snaps at his mate instead.
“I don’t need to see a doctor, I’m perfectly healthy.”
“What you are is perfectly pregnant,” Jensen says with a ghost of a smile that Jared soaked in because he hasn’t seen it in days and the wave of happiness that comes through the bond takes him by surprise. Just as he’s beginning to toy with the idea of forgiving Jensen the bond tie is gone and he’s left feeling bereft and even angrier.
Even though he was against it, Jared finds himself in the waiting room of said doctor’s office fuming, It’s embarrassing that Jensen would put him through this charade. Picking up a magazine, Jared pretended to read so that Jensen won’t try to talk to him.
“Ackles and Padalecki,” a blonde nurse calls out and Jared eyes the door wondering if he could beat Jensen to it, but it seemed that Jensen was reading his thoughts and tucked his hand under Jared’s elbow and escorted him to the examination room.
As they reached the door to the examination rooms. Jensen pulled Jared aside to let another couple exit and that’s when Jared began to believe. At first Jared thought that the youngest of the pair was a girl with a short haircut.
After all she was pregnant, but then the young girl turned towards his mate and spoke, “Hey can we go get ice cream now, because I have been craving it all day.”
He didn’t hear the answer because of the roar in his ears. After hearing that deep voice, Jared knew that that was a pregnant… man. His hand flew to his stomach and he just knew. Despite the lack of symptoms, he knew that Jensen had told him the truth and now he was torn between happiness and anger.
The scale would tip over to happiness if he knew that Jensen was happy about it but he didn’t appear to be in the least bit excited about having a sixteen-year-old pregnant mate.
Not wanting Jensen’s pity, Jared wouldn’t allow him to assist as he changed into the paper gown for the examination.
After the nurse left, neither man made an attempt at starting a conversation. Each time it seemed that Jensen was going to, Jared turned his head away cutting off each attempt.
“Sorry you guys had to wait so long, I had to squeeze you in and it’s been one of my busiest days,” the doctor apologized as he pulled up a stool next to the table Jared was lying on. “I’m doctor Hodge, but since Jensen and I go way back, you can call me Aldis.”
“Nice to meet you, Aldis,” Jared greeted, “but I wish that it was under different circumstances.”
“Being newly turned I know that this is a shock, but it’ll be okay. You have a great Alpha and he’ll take care of you. You and I will have time to get to know each other in the future, but for now let’s see what we have going on here,” Aldis tried to reassure as he pulled down the gown and began to press on Jared’s stomach. The examination wasn’t as invasive as Jared thought that it was going to be, but it was humiliating all the same so he closed his eyes and pretended to be elsewhere.
As Aldis examined him and prepped him for the ultrasound, he opened his eyes and relaxed when he felt Jensen’s hand slip into his. For a moment their eyes met and their bond opened and for the first time in a week, Jared felt as though he and Jensen were in this together.
Both of them smiled when they heard the baby’s heartbeat.
“Now if you were human, it would be a while before I could hear this,” Aldis explained.
“If I were human, then we wouldn’t be having this conversation,” Jared joked dryly.
“If you were human, Jensen here would still be holed up in that pile of sticks he calls a cabin and it would be another five years before I’d see him again.”
The thought of Jensen being alone made Jared sad, but the knowledge that he was waiting for him chased away the feeling. They would be happy again, Jared just had to figure out how to get over this whole lying by omission thing.
“Okay, Jared what we’re doing is taking the first pictures of your pup, now I see your claim mark, were there any complications from your claiming?”
“No,” Jensen answered when Jared became too self-conscious to answer.
“Good. There are things that you need to know, when you’re in your human form as you are now, the pup will show on the ultrasound as human, but in your wolf form the pup will be wolf as well. The pregnancy will not be as long as a human one, and you will give birth in your wolf form and your pup will not shift until it turns a year old.”
“Oh, great I’ll give birth to a puppy. How… how much shorter?” Jared asked while throwing Jensen a look that said this is one more thing that you didn’t tell me.
“Roughly about three months less. In six months you’ll be a mother,” Aldis smiled at Jared making him relax.
Pursing his lips in anger, apparently there were a hell of a lot of things that Jensen had left out. He knew that he would get over the pregnancy thing, after all they were mated. Jensen squeezed his hand, but Jared couldn’t take caring from him right now so he pulled his hand from Jensen’s and placed it at his side ignoring the hurt that briefly flitted across Jensen’s handsome face.
Not even the picture from the ultrasound cheered him up. He dressed in silence and seethed as he thought about what else Jensen and Jeff hadn’t told him. As he dressed, Jared watched as his mate whispered to his friend and even with his super hearing he couldn’t catch what they were saying, but once they were in the car, he’d have his say.
Once they were in the car, Jensen turned to Jared and asked, “Are you hungry?”
“Yeah, but for answers, not food,” Jared answered through gritted teeth.
With a deep sigh, Jensen said, “well I am hungry for food. There’s a diner down the street called Henry’s, we can eat there while you start yelling at me about whatever’s got you riled up this time. I told you, you were pregnant, but now that it’s confirmed you’re mad all over again. I don’t know what you want from me.”
He could see that Jared was angry and wanted to say something but the boy just sat there huffing in righteous indignation. Jared had started this conversation, now he is behaving like the sixteen-year-old that he was.
The restaurant was almost empty and Jensen was happy about that. He knew that this conversation was not going to be a quiet one and he’d rather have it at home, but Jared was determined to have the discussion now.
Once they settled into the booth the waitress handed them menus and Jensen pretended to study it even though he knew that he was going to order the steak. If this conversation was going to take place here, then Jared would be the one to start it because if he was waiting for Jensen, then their pup would be born before Jensen spoke the first word.
“I’m pregnant,” Jared said in a voice so sad that it broke Jensen’s heart.
“I know, Jared, I told you and Aldis told you, so where do we go from here?”
“You - you didn’t tell me that I could get pregnant before you turned me, you painted all sunshine and lollipops, but you said nothing about a baby.”
“No Jared, I claimed you but I didn’t turn you. Instead of listening to me, you licked my come off of your hand after I all but cut off my dick to keep from fucking you that night. Then to make matters worse, you were stumbling around outdoors in full blown heat where anyone could have taken you and almost did. No I didn’t say anything about a baby because you didn’t give me the chance!”
As Jensen was talking he let down the walls of the bond and he felt Jared’s emotions. Anger and joy warred with fright. Not wanting to overwhelm Jared with an onslaught of his emotions as well, Jensen closed off the bond again.
“Why do you keep doing that?” Jared whispered.
“Doing what?”
“The bond,’” Jared responded. “you keep closing me out and I can’t get a read on you, but you know exactly how I feel and it’s not fair.”
“I wasn’t trying to cut you off, but it hurt to know that you hated me, that you no longer wanted this - us.”
“It’s not that I don’t want you, God knows I do. I miss you touching me, and no I don’t mean sex,” Jared cut him off when he tried to deny that. “It makes everything okay when you just touch me. And you just stopped.”
“All I could concentrate on was the hurt and anger, and felt as though I had failed you somehow.”
“You didn’t fail me, it just that you didn’t tell me all I needed to know about being a werewolf.”
“I tried to tell you what I thought was important, but trying to tell you what its like to be a shifter is hard. That’s like you trying to tell me what it’s like to be a human, there’s so much to being one that you’re bound to leave something out.”
“You could have told me that I’d end up pregnant,” Jared huffed.
“I would have had you not jumped the gun and given me time,” Jensen countered.
He would have told him, but Jared being an impetuous teenager, licked a drop of Jensen’s come off on his hand and turned. God how he wished he’d been there for that. To see Jared take him into his body, turning, becoming his.
“How am I going to explain this to my family, I mean if I show up pregnant, with a man who’s a hundred years old…”
“What I’m not a hundred,” Jensen corrected, offended that Jared thought him to be that old.
“Might as well be, you’re too old to be with me and then there’s the gay thing that came out of left field.”
“I didn’t know whether my mate would be male or female, in our world it doesn’t matter, it’s what nature decides for us. Humans place more emphasis on the sex of a mate, we just want our mates and take them in whatever form Luna sends them. Do you feel weird because I’m male?”
“No, if I were-when I was still human it did, but right now the only reason I thought about it was because of what my family will say. It feels natural to love you, but how am I gonna explain this Jen?”
“In the old days it didn’t matter, but now it does. Packs were able to live apart from humans without there being any suspicion, but now it gets harder and harder to do so. Aldis has provided me with the name of a local pack member who will pose as a surrogate for us. We can go meet her after lunch. The hard part will be your parents.”
part 1b
Author: cillab42
Fandom/Genre: RPS
Pairing(s): Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 22k
Warnings: underage (Jared is 16) a/b/o, werewolves, bottom!jared, mentions of mpreg,
Summary: Jared has accepted his role as Jensen's mate until he found out he's left out a few details. Like pregnancy. Thanks masja_17 for the beta. Any mistakes foun are my own.
Jared and Jensen belong to themselves just borrowing their likeness.
Jensen was hiding something from him. What, Jared wasn’t sure but over the past few weeks since their mating, their bond had become stronger and stronger and he could sense all of his mate’s emotions. What he was sensing now was a mixture of happiness and worry.
The happiness he understood but he racked his brain as to what could cause that kind of worry. Jensen was so worried that he would go running without taking Jared with him after weeks of never leaving him alone.
Oh God, had Jensen decided that Jared wasn’t supposed to be his mate after all and he was running to get away from him?
Jared shook his head at that thought because he knew that couldn’t be true. His body still throbbed from the way Jensen took him repeatedly during the night.
The problem wasn’t during the night it was in the morning when they woke; or rather when Jensen woke early and was gone before Jared was awake. It felt as though Jensen was disgusted by him and couldn’t face him.
Even on the first morning after being claimed by an angry Jensen, they ate breakfast together and had each morning since no matter how early before Jensen left to check his traps. But now Jensen sneaks out without so much as a good-bye kiss leaving Jared to his solitary meal.
Once he’s finished his breakfast, there isn’t much for Jared to do. His satellite classes won’t start for another week and the problem with Jensen seems to be giving him an artistic block. Because of the problems with Jensen all he can do is stare at the breathtaking views because he cannot capture them on canvas.
It wasn’t just this silent disagreement with Jensen that was aiding his artistic block. Each time he tried to paint he stopped in favor of gathering blankets and some of Jensen’s clothes and placing them in the spare bedroom. Just yesterday Jensen was looking for his favorite hoodie and found it there.
It irritated Jared that Jensen had moved it but he just replaced it with another article of Jensen’s clothing. When Jensen asked why he was taking his clothes, Jared didn’t have an answer, he just knew that he needed them. Besides it gave him something to do for a while.
Because Jensen moved the hoodie, Jared decided to move his collection of things where Jensen couldn’t find them, outside in an old tree. There were pockets of old growth forest near the house and in his explorations, Jared found a hollowed out one he could fit his large body into with ease.
Yesterday he tried to get Jensen to take him along to check the traps but Jensen went all growly and protective (about what Jared’s still not sure) that Jared gave in. He’s called his mom and filled her in on what’s happening. Well everything except that he’s a werewolf and mated to the werewolf who turned him.
Jared knew that it would be some time before Jensen came back from checking his traps, and after breakfast there wasn't much for him to do. Wanting to get past the block Jared grabbed his sketch pad, put on his coat and went on the deck and made an attempt to capture the beauty of the Denali mountain range.
The first time Jared saw this view it took his breath away and he thought that over time it would just become a part of the scenery but so far that wasn’t the case. It was the second most beautiful thing he’d ever seen. Jensen was the first.
He wasn't sure how long he'd last in the cold, but it seems to be what he needed to jumpstart his desire to paint again because his fingers moved with ease as he captured the view before him. But when he looked at the finished work, it wasn't the mountainous view that he’d captured, it was Jensen.
It was the look of disdain that his mate had been giving him as of late, except that if he looked closer it wasn't disdain, it was worry.
Why was Jensen worried about him?
That question plagued him all afternoon. As far as Jared could tell, all was well with the two of them, but the furrowed brow and the deep crinkles next to Jensen’s eyes told him otherwise.
Jared spent the rest of the afternoon trying to figure out a way to address his worries. He began to prepare dinner, a hamburger casserole. It was a recipe that his mother had taught him, simple but good and above all, it was filling and Jensen seemed to like it as much as he did.
That evening when Jensen was making his way home, Jared could smell the sourness from worry the closer Jensen got to home. Jared was removing the casserole from the oven when he felt warm arms encircling his waist as Jensen buried his nose into Jared's neck.
"Hey, baby," Jensen greeted, "did you have a good day?"
That one kiss almost made Jared forget his agenda, to find out why Jensen was so worried and it would have been easy to do. The pheromones Jensen was sending out almost covered up that sour smell and all Jared could think of was fuck me fill me up with your babies.
That thought made him blush and push Jensen away. For some reason each time Jensen fucked him, he pretended that it would make him pregnant. If Jensen knew what he was thinking, he might think that he got a defective mate.
"Yeah," Jared half lied. It wasn't bad per se, it was that he spent it worrying and now that
Jensen was here he still wasn’t so sure he wanted the answers.
Just as he could feel Jensen’s mood, Jensen could feel his and it must have showed on his face, because now Jensen was more worried than before.
Once Jared sat the hot casserole on the table, Jensen turned Jared towards him, took a hold of Jared's chin and looked him in the eye and asked, “Why are you lying to me Jared? We promised no secrets, so tell me what's wrong."
The statement made Jared angry because he wasn’t the on keeping secrets, Jensen was, and
Jared let him know this.
"That’s right Jensen we did, but you have been keeping shit from me. Why don't you tell me what's wrong and we’ll figure it out together?”
Sighing, Jensen leaned forward and gave Jared a quick peck on the lips, "There's nothing wrong, Jared I think that it’s fantastic news but I’m not sure how you’ll take it.”
“Take what Jensen?”
“At first I thought that you knew and wanted to be sure, but there were no tests and I’m pretty sure at this point that you haven’t talked to Hillarie, but now I know that you don’t know.”
“Know what, Jensen?”
“That you’re pregnant,” Jensen exhaled.
“I’m a boy, I can’t get pregnant,” Jared said as though Jensen was stupid.
“You’re an Omega,” Jensen replied as though that explained everything.
At Jensen’s response, Jared thought about all of the changes that his body has gone through over the past three weeks. Injuries that should have taken months to mend were healed overnight, and then there was the knotting. He knew that dogs knotted in order to keep their seed inside their mate to make sure that they would father her pups and Jensen knotted him.
As that thought settled in his mind, his stomach began to gurgle and he only just made it to the bathroom before throwing up.
He heard Jensen coming towards him with intentions of comforting him, but Jared didn’t want his comfort right now, so when Jensen was at the door of the bathroom, Jared took his foot and kicked the door closed.
With the waves of anger that he felt coming through that bond, for a moment Jared thought that Jensen was going to knock the door down but he didn’t. The waves of anger changed to sorrow and for a while Jared considered opening the door and reassure Jensen that he was okay, but then he remembered.
Pregnant!
All of this talk about mates and bond, alphas and omegas no one said a fucking thing about babies and that fact that he could have one. Men don’t get pregnant so it never occurred to Jared to worry about it.
Oh God how was he going to deal with this? There was no way that he could go visit his parents or have them come visit him. Hell, it was going to be hard enough to explain Jensen let alone a pregnancy.
Once he felt that his stomach was settled, Jared sat down with his back against the cast iron claw-foot tub and began to think about what he knew about the lore of werewolves. Never had he read about males being able to bear kids, but then he’d never read about werewolves in a non-fictional setting.
“Jared, talk to me. Please!” Jensen begged from the other side of the door.
He was not ready to talk, not yet. Instead of answering, he sent his feelings along the bond to let Jensen know that he was not ready. At first he thought that Jensen was going to ignore him, but a few minutes later he heard him leave and it was then he allowed himself to cry.
Jensen wanted to run. He wanted to run until the last few moments were gone, giving him back his bubbly, happy Jared. He knew that his mate was going to be freaked out at the idea of being pregnant, but he hadn’t expected this reaction.
Omegas were such affectionate beings who lived to nurture that it was a shock to see him cry at the thought of being pregnant. He knew that the idea of being pregnant would be foreign to Jared, but he had no idea that it would be soul destroying.
For the rest of the evening Jensen fiddled around the house and spent some time in his smaller cabin under the guise that he needed to finish tanning his hides. The hides needed to be done, but what he was in fact doing was allowing Jared to have the time alone that he needed. He knew that Jared was not going to come to terms with being pregnant overnight, but Luna willing he’d be at the point where he would talk to Jensen so that they could make plans.
Even if-no when Jared came around, there was still Jared’s family to consider. There were so many things that just couldn’t be explained away. In reality Jensen was eighty-three years old, but according to the government he was thirty. While still not an octogenarian, by legal standards he was too old to touch Jared let alone make babies with someone who is not supposed to have the equipment to accomplish that feat.
When he returned to the house, Jensen searched for Jared, and when he saw that the door to their bedroom was closed, he stood outside for a minute before turning the handle to go in. It was locked. He rattled it to let Jared know that he was there, but there was no response from the other side of the door.
Now Jensen felt like crying.
He’s not sure how long he stood outside the door waiting for Jared to let him into the bedroom, but he never did. He understood that Jared was upset, but they had to talk to work this out. If he wanted to he could be through the door in seconds, but that wouldn’t help the situation.
He walked back to the kitchen to try to figure out how to fix the problem, but he didn’t know what to do. Instead of pacing through the house waiting for Jared to come out of the room he undressed in a rush and ran out into the woods. Once there he threw his head back and howled out his frustration.
Jensen’s call of distress was soon answered by his friends. He had only just let out the first mournful wail when he was surrounded by his friends. Most people would think that as alphas the group wouldn’t be close, but they were.
Their pack was small, only about forty or so members and unless it was fighting for the right to mate, they were close and Jensen couldn’t remember the last time there was any dissension among them.
“What’s wrong, Jensen?” Jeff asked “is it Jared?”
Giving the group a watery smile that didn’t reach his eyes Jensen told them, “Jared’s pregnant.”
“Then why the fuck are you so sad?” Chris asked. “You should be at home helping him make his den and getting ready to become a father.”
“Jared is freaking out about this and is angry that I didn’t tell him that he could get pregnant.”
“Jensen,” Jeff shook his head in disappointment, “You should have told him sooner.”
“Yeah, perhaps I should have, but I just knew that this was going to be his reaction and I just wanted to have something good before it all fell apart.”
“Perhaps Hillarie could go talk to him,” Jeff suggested, “it worked before.” He reminded Jensen alluding to when his mate explained to Jared what becoming a werewolf entailed.
“This is different Jeff. Hillarie is a woman so she’s supposed to have children.”
“What about Steve?” Chris offered.
“Or Mike,” Tom suggested his mate.
“Even though they’ve given birth, neither of them are pregnant now so I’m not quite sure if he’s going to believe, but if I need to I’ll let you know.”
“You boys are ignoring the obvious,” their pack Alpha, Jim Beaver, said. “Jensen you’ve got to take your pelts to Nome, take him to the pack doctor and let him take a pregnancy test.”
Jensen liked that idea. It would be a fruitful trip because while in Nome they would also need to start looking for a person that they could present as a surrogate. That’s the thing about these modern times, when their child was born they will have to provide proof that they didn’t just steal someone’s child. They would need to provide a birth certificate and proof of adoption and a surrogate was the only way to provide those things.
Now that he had a game plan, Jensen needed to go home and convince Jared to talk to him so that he could put everything in motion. The run back to the house cleared his head enough to give him an idea of how to sweeten the pot.
Jared lay in the bed that he’s been sharing with Jensen for the past three weeks. Since the first night that Jensen claimed him everything in this bed has always been good, but now he lay there wondering if it had all been a lie.
He touched his hand to his stomach and tried to feel the evidence that Jensen was telling the truth, that he was pregnant but he felt nothing. Not only was his belly not rounded but neither had he had any other pregnancy symptoms. There was no throwing up or weird cravings or anything else out of the ordinary.
But Jensen said that he was pregnant and despite the lack of evidence he was sure that Jensen was right and he didn’t know how to deal with that.
Despite the fact that he was upset at the prospect of being pregnant (how was the baby supposed to get out of his body?) a part of him was thrilled about the thought of a baby and that made him angrier at Jensen. That information should have been given before he decided to let Jensen claim him. Jared let his anger have free reign as he swatted away the voice that said that he would have let Jensen have him even if he had known.
As he lay there he thought about the inevitability of this happening. He knew about the heats, that he was going to have them every three months and the chance of him getting pregnant was very real, but he’d have liked to have been given the choice. Perhaps there was birth control, something that would have given him time before he became pregnant.
It would be so easy to unlock the door and listen as Jensen tried to talk his way out of this mess. He smiled as he thought how cute it was to watch the big tough alpha blush his way through an apology. Jared was so lost in his memory that he almost missed the sound of the door closing as Jensen left.
He didn’t miss the hurt that came through the bond a few minutes later though. It hurt so bad that it made him cry. The only thing that made him cry harder was a few minutes later when the pain stopped and he knew that someone else was comforting his alpha.
He lay there and listened for Jensen to return, and when he did he sniffed the air to see what kind of comfort Jensen had sought. The only scent he could detect was that of other alphas one of whom was Jeff and that gave him comfort. Jensen was well established and that could mean that he had lovers stashed in the bush who knew more than a just turned sixteen-year-old.
Once he was satisfied that Jensen hadn’t gone to another Omega, Jared unlocked the door. When Jensen entered, Jared threw back the covers inviting him into the bed. They would have to talk, but in the morning, but tonight Jared needed the comfort of his alpha before he could sleep.
The smell of bacon and coffee woke him this morning telling him that either he’d awoke earlier than usual or Jensen was running late. A quick glance at the bedside clock told him it was the latter so Jared padded into the kitchen before Jensen could leave.
“Are you still mad at me?” Jensen asked as he placed a plate of food in front of Jared.
“Yes,” Jared answered as he bit into a slice of toast.
“Then tell me what I have to do to fix this Jared,” Jensen repeated the words Jared used on him the morning after he’d claimed Jared.
The raw emotion that was coming through the bond from Jensen was almost overwhelming and made Jared want to give in, but he couldn’t just yet. He could forgive Jensen for not telling him that he could get pregnant. It felt as though something was clawing at his mind, telling him to kneel before Jensen and beg for forgiveness, but Jared fought it.
No, Jared wasn’t the one who was wrong, that honor belonged to Jensen.
By that evening the pair were dancing around one another. In the end the not speaking got to Jensen and he went to his cabin. He told Jared it was to finish his pelts and check the airplane, but Jared knew it was more to get away from him.
All day Jensen poured his emotion through their bond and Jared was developing a major headache trying to fight it and then without warning it was gone leaving Jared questioning what that meant. Once Jensen walked out of the door Jared couldn’t sense his mate anymore and he felt lost. As much as it hurt getting Jensen’s feelings pouring through their bond, it hurt even worse when he couldn’t.
Jensen was at the cabin and all of a sudden nothing and after a while it made him think that something was wrong. Just when the panic began to set in, Jared felt Jensen through the bond and calmed down. It wasn’t much, almost as though Jensen put out a feeler to test Jared’s emotions, but it was enough.
“Jared,” Jensen called out to him.
Grateful for the connection, for a moment Jared forgot that he was angry with his mate and went to greet him with an eagerness that should have been embarrassing, but when he saw his mate give a small smile and a glance at Jared’s stomach, the anger came back and he stopped short.
Jensen left an important bit of information out about him turning so he was not going to forgive him so easily, so instead of answering him, he stared at his mate like a spoiled child. He knew that he should talk this out, and they would but on Jared’s terms.
Jared crossed his arms and waited until Jensen got the message that he was not going to answer before continuing to speak. For a second Jared was hit with a wave of sorrow through the bond and made him feel guilty until Jensen spoke.
“I need for you to pack for a couple of days, because you are going with me to Nome.”
Jared didn’t want to speak but how else was he going to inform this tyrant that he was not going with him.
“I’m not going anywhere with you,” Jared spat at him. “Is this where you dump me off with someone now that you’ve made me into a freak?”
“What the hell are you talking about Jared? I’m - I know that you have every reason to be mad, but to accuse me of something like that isn’t fair, Jared.”
“You’re right I didn’t trust you. While you’re gone I can stay with Hillarie and Jeff…”
Jared didn’t get to finish the sentence because Jensen was suddenly in his face, “No you will not stay with them, you are coming with me and you will be ready at first light in the morning.”
If this was his parents making the command Jared would buck against their authority and dig in to go against their decision, but when Jensen issued the order that he was going. It was something about the low timbre of his Alpha’s voice that had him fighting to stop from bearing his neck to his alpha. There wasn’t even a thought of saying no.
Muttering to himself, Jared went to their room and packed a bag. He didn’t even know how long they were going to be gone. He’d listened to Jensen talk about getting to the fur dealers warehouse and guessed that they would be gone for two-three days at the most.
Once he was packed Jared prepared for bed. Last night was lonely and he didn’t want that again. He wouldn’t let Jensen touch him intimately, but he would be welcome in their bed.
After showering and dressing for bed, Jared left the door to the bedroom open, and smiled as Jensen joined him under the covers.
The next morning Jared woke to the sound of Jensen moving through the house. There was not a big breakfast this morning, just some frozen biscuits and coffee. Jared looked for his bag but couldn’t find it.
“It’s already packed,” Jensen informed him. “Just waiting on you.”
Outside Jared looked for their transportation but there was no vehicle waiting for them. Not even the snowmobiles.
“How are we getting there?” Jared asked. “Is Jeff coming for us?”
“No,” Jensen said and walked out to the huge detached garage in the back of the house. Jared had seen the place may times but had never gone inside. If he had he’s sure that he would have noticed the plane Jensen kept there.
Guessing that this was their transportation, Jared stopped short, “Is this thing safe to fly?”
Once again Jared felt bad about the sarcasm when he felt the wave of hurt that came across the bond.
“I would never place my family in jeopardy,” Jensen assured Jared. “I have taken every precaution to make sure that this plane runs safely or else I wouldn’t fly in it.”
“Your mate,” Jared corrected him, “There is no family because I. Am. Not. Pregnant!”
Jared watched in satisfaction as Jensen bit back the retort. In the time that they have been together, Jared knew that his mate had a sharp tongue and wasn’t afraid to use it. Except with him. Jared was sure that there was a time when Jensen would lose his temper and turn on him but he hadn’t gotten there yet.
“I have never lied to you Jared, never! Don’t give me that shit about lying by omission because after that first night you were carrying my pup and nothing can change that.”
“Don’t be so sure,” Jared mumbled.
“What the fuck does that mean?” Jensen snarled, “Are you planning to end this pregnancy?”
And now he knows why Amell gave in so quickly, because to have Jensen turn that anger onto him was scary. He might be a werewolf now but he was sure that if came down to it, Jensen would win any fight between them.
“Well?” Jensen demanded.
“How can I get rid of something that doesn’t even exist?” Jared asked defiantly as he held his stomach protectively.
He didn’t believe that he really was pregnant, but the answer must have appeased Jensen because he nodded and completed his checks and started the plane.
The flight to Nome was long and quiet, the only sound was the noise from the plane’s engine.
Jared had thought that being in the cramped space for hours would have made Jensen try to force a conversation, but there was nothing and that hurt as well. It seemed that Jensen didn’t care enough to want to talk.
It felt like that except every now and then there was feeling that came over the bond that told him that Jensen wanted to talk but was scared to. How could Jensen, his big strong alpha be scared to talk to him? Each time Jared tried to delve into those emotions, they were gone.
It reminded him of when Chad used to chase dandelion seeds and whenever they got close the wind would blow them out of reach.
When they reached Nome Jensen had a friend waiting for him to help unload the plane and drive them to the furriers. Whenever Jared tried to help the men gently pushed him aside, treating him like a small child.
Or a pregnant woman.
It was fascinating watching his mate haggle over the condition and the price of the furs. Jared had wanted to ask questions about the process, but he was afraid that Jensen would think him silly or just refuse to answer.
Years of trapping made Jensen an expert and he walked away with more money than the buyer had wanted to spend. After the transaction was complete Jensen piled them into the car his friend Ty Olson had provided for them.
Once they were in the vehicle, Jensen cleared his throat and said, “I made an appointment for you with a local doctor.” He held his hand up to stop Jared from interrupting, “As are most of the people in this city, he’s a werewolf and specializes in were medicine.”
Werewolf doctor? How much more about the life of werewolf does he need to know about? The things he was learning he’s never seen in a movie or on television. He turns to look at Jensen and wants to ask him more questions but does remember that he is mad at him, so he snaps at his mate instead.
“I don’t need to see a doctor, I’m perfectly healthy.”
“What you are is perfectly pregnant,” Jensen says with a ghost of a smile that Jared soaked in because he hasn’t seen it in days and the wave of happiness that comes through the bond takes him by surprise. Just as he’s beginning to toy with the idea of forgiving Jensen the bond tie is gone and he’s left feeling bereft and even angrier.
Even though he was against it, Jared finds himself in the waiting room of said doctor’s office fuming, It’s embarrassing that Jensen would put him through this charade. Picking up a magazine, Jared pretended to read so that Jensen won’t try to talk to him.
“Ackles and Padalecki,” a blonde nurse calls out and Jared eyes the door wondering if he could beat Jensen to it, but it seemed that Jensen was reading his thoughts and tucked his hand under Jared’s elbow and escorted him to the examination room.
As they reached the door to the examination rooms. Jensen pulled Jared aside to let another couple exit and that’s when Jared began to believe. At first Jared thought that the youngest of the pair was a girl with a short haircut.
After all she was pregnant, but then the young girl turned towards his mate and spoke, “Hey can we go get ice cream now, because I have been craving it all day.”
He didn’t hear the answer because of the roar in his ears. After hearing that deep voice, Jared knew that that was a pregnant… man. His hand flew to his stomach and he just knew. Despite the lack of symptoms, he knew that Jensen had told him the truth and now he was torn between happiness and anger.
The scale would tip over to happiness if he knew that Jensen was happy about it but he didn’t appear to be in the least bit excited about having a sixteen-year-old pregnant mate.
Not wanting Jensen’s pity, Jared wouldn’t allow him to assist as he changed into the paper gown for the examination.
After the nurse left, neither man made an attempt at starting a conversation. Each time it seemed that Jensen was going to, Jared turned his head away cutting off each attempt.
“Sorry you guys had to wait so long, I had to squeeze you in and it’s been one of my busiest days,” the doctor apologized as he pulled up a stool next to the table Jared was lying on. “I’m doctor Hodge, but since Jensen and I go way back, you can call me Aldis.”
“Nice to meet you, Aldis,” Jared greeted, “but I wish that it was under different circumstances.”
“Being newly turned I know that this is a shock, but it’ll be okay. You have a great Alpha and he’ll take care of you. You and I will have time to get to know each other in the future, but for now let’s see what we have going on here,” Aldis tried to reassure as he pulled down the gown and began to press on Jared’s stomach. The examination wasn’t as invasive as Jared thought that it was going to be, but it was humiliating all the same so he closed his eyes and pretended to be elsewhere.
As Aldis examined him and prepped him for the ultrasound, he opened his eyes and relaxed when he felt Jensen’s hand slip into his. For a moment their eyes met and their bond opened and for the first time in a week, Jared felt as though he and Jensen were in this together.
Both of them smiled when they heard the baby’s heartbeat.
“Now if you were human, it would be a while before I could hear this,” Aldis explained.
“If I were human, then we wouldn’t be having this conversation,” Jared joked dryly.
“If you were human, Jensen here would still be holed up in that pile of sticks he calls a cabin and it would be another five years before I’d see him again.”
The thought of Jensen being alone made Jared sad, but the knowledge that he was waiting for him chased away the feeling. They would be happy again, Jared just had to figure out how to get over this whole lying by omission thing.
“Okay, Jared what we’re doing is taking the first pictures of your pup, now I see your claim mark, were there any complications from your claiming?”
“No,” Jensen answered when Jared became too self-conscious to answer.
“Good. There are things that you need to know, when you’re in your human form as you are now, the pup will show on the ultrasound as human, but in your wolf form the pup will be wolf as well. The pregnancy will not be as long as a human one, and you will give birth in your wolf form and your pup will not shift until it turns a year old.”
“Oh, great I’ll give birth to a puppy. How… how much shorter?” Jared asked while throwing Jensen a look that said this is one more thing that you didn’t tell me.
“Roughly about three months less. In six months you’ll be a mother,” Aldis smiled at Jared making him relax.
Pursing his lips in anger, apparently there were a hell of a lot of things that Jensen had left out. He knew that he would get over the pregnancy thing, after all they were mated. Jensen squeezed his hand, but Jared couldn’t take caring from him right now so he pulled his hand from Jensen’s and placed it at his side ignoring the hurt that briefly flitted across Jensen’s handsome face.
Not even the picture from the ultrasound cheered him up. He dressed in silence and seethed as he thought about what else Jensen and Jeff hadn’t told him. As he dressed, Jared watched as his mate whispered to his friend and even with his super hearing he couldn’t catch what they were saying, but once they were in the car, he’d have his say.
Once they were in the car, Jensen turned to Jared and asked, “Are you hungry?”
“Yeah, but for answers, not food,” Jared answered through gritted teeth.
With a deep sigh, Jensen said, “well I am hungry for food. There’s a diner down the street called Henry’s, we can eat there while you start yelling at me about whatever’s got you riled up this time. I told you, you were pregnant, but now that it’s confirmed you’re mad all over again. I don’t know what you want from me.”
He could see that Jared was angry and wanted to say something but the boy just sat there huffing in righteous indignation. Jared had started this conversation, now he is behaving like the sixteen-year-old that he was.
The restaurant was almost empty and Jensen was happy about that. He knew that this conversation was not going to be a quiet one and he’d rather have it at home, but Jared was determined to have the discussion now.
Once they settled into the booth the waitress handed them menus and Jensen pretended to study it even though he knew that he was going to order the steak. If this conversation was going to take place here, then Jared would be the one to start it because if he was waiting for Jensen, then their pup would be born before Jensen spoke the first word.
“I’m pregnant,” Jared said in a voice so sad that it broke Jensen’s heart.
“I know, Jared, I told you and Aldis told you, so where do we go from here?”
“You - you didn’t tell me that I could get pregnant before you turned me, you painted all sunshine and lollipops, but you said nothing about a baby.”
“No Jared, I claimed you but I didn’t turn you. Instead of listening to me, you licked my come off of your hand after I all but cut off my dick to keep from fucking you that night. Then to make matters worse, you were stumbling around outdoors in full blown heat where anyone could have taken you and almost did. No I didn’t say anything about a baby because you didn’t give me the chance!”
As Jensen was talking he let down the walls of the bond and he felt Jared’s emotions. Anger and joy warred with fright. Not wanting to overwhelm Jared with an onslaught of his emotions as well, Jensen closed off the bond again.
“Why do you keep doing that?” Jared whispered.
“Doing what?”
“The bond,’” Jared responded. “you keep closing me out and I can’t get a read on you, but you know exactly how I feel and it’s not fair.”
“I wasn’t trying to cut you off, but it hurt to know that you hated me, that you no longer wanted this - us.”
“It’s not that I don’t want you, God knows I do. I miss you touching me, and no I don’t mean sex,” Jared cut him off when he tried to deny that. “It makes everything okay when you just touch me. And you just stopped.”
“All I could concentrate on was the hurt and anger, and felt as though I had failed you somehow.”
“You didn’t fail me, it just that you didn’t tell me all I needed to know about being a werewolf.”
“I tried to tell you what I thought was important, but trying to tell you what its like to be a shifter is hard. That’s like you trying to tell me what it’s like to be a human, there’s so much to being one that you’re bound to leave something out.”
“You could have told me that I’d end up pregnant,” Jared huffed.
“I would have had you not jumped the gun and given me time,” Jensen countered.
He would have told him, but Jared being an impetuous teenager, licked a drop of Jensen’s come off on his hand and turned. God how he wished he’d been there for that. To see Jared take him into his body, turning, becoming his.
“How am I going to explain this to my family, I mean if I show up pregnant, with a man who’s a hundred years old…”
“What I’m not a hundred,” Jensen corrected, offended that Jared thought him to be that old.
“Might as well be, you’re too old to be with me and then there’s the gay thing that came out of left field.”
“I didn’t know whether my mate would be male or female, in our world it doesn’t matter, it’s what nature decides for us. Humans place more emphasis on the sex of a mate, we just want our mates and take them in whatever form Luna sends them. Do you feel weird because I’m male?”
“No, if I were-when I was still human it did, but right now the only reason I thought about it was because of what my family will say. It feels natural to love you, but how am I gonna explain this Jen?”
“In the old days it didn’t matter, but now it does. Packs were able to live apart from humans without there being any suspicion, but now it gets harder and harder to do so. Aldis has provided me with the name of a local pack member who will pose as a surrogate for us. We can go meet her after lunch. The hard part will be your parents.”
part 1b