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Sex As Therapy To My Bulimia!
I've noticed that whenever I have a large lifestyle change--like when my sister just came to visit me in nyc for a few weeks, or when i go on holiday-- I don't overeat or purge. The novelty of that however fades and I start again. When my sister was in NYC I got so creative with ways in which I could get her out of the house so that I could purge ( Read more... ) -
Dear Lesbian celebrities: come out of the closet!
Is Rihanna gay? So many songs of hers that do more then imply so and I've thought it for a while. Then yesterday I'm sitting at home watching MTV (something I never do) and bam bam....a rihanna music video for Te Amo which to me, really looked like her way of coming out.
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on laziness & the lesbian scene in Johannesburg
Holiday at home in South Africa, visiting the parents. It's cold but I'm taking full advantage of the laziness that comes with cold weather. Tea & books & movies. I've been spending a lot of time with my sister... cooking, shopping and basically being a granny ( Read more... ) -
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I just got this funny feeling that communities are rejecting me because I have an eating disorder which I speak openly about.
Seriously?!? Is this possible?
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let me peel off my face
It's always so hard to start, or to continue, after having left it for such a long time. I feel that I need to give an understanding as to where I I am in terms of though, feeling...life ( Read more... ) -
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Everything is goodISH....it makes me feel as if I have nothing to post here.
here are some updates:- i still live in williamsburg. the novelty has run out...i hate when that happens :( i want my excitement back. Still, Im happy here.
- as far as my eating disorder goes. i have been purging more then i should...i few times a week. I got really worried ( Read more... )
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nobody wants to read the happy stuff! but, FUCK IT!
I'm really tired so this will be a pathetically short post. Perhaps even a pathetically written one ( Read more... ) -
Back from my road trip. happy.
I have left behind the hot Tennessee sun and am back in the city. Happy and homeless and way too tired for my many updates. All coming tomorrow or thursday....
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delicious dream
I bought chocolate flavored lip balm. Maybe this will help...when I feel the need to eat, I can just lick my lips.
mmmmm.
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updates...
24 May
Sixth day and again I nearly fucked up! I’m beginning to get scared now…what if this struggle doesn’t end soon? What if even when I do reach my goal weight it still happens and I still want to do it? Fuck fuck fuck fuck this is so fucking hard. Sometimes, while I’m sitting in the train (It often happens on the train, waiting for the ( Read more... )