I drown alone in abyss ( Read more... )

So i don't know anything that's goin on anymore. I don't. So i will just rant and go off and just type whatever comes out of my mind. Cause I'm fucking lost, i'm ruined, i'm just gone. What's the point of this tatterd and torn life. WHat's the fucking point. Can anyone tell me? No, no one can tell me cause no one really cares no one really pays ( Read more... )

So DEMF was fun i didn't roll but i was still really really fucked up on a lot of pills( not E but prescription pills). And I smoked a lot too to feel the euphoria more intensely. But anyways I came really really close to taking E i had 2 pills in my hands ready to take then someone talked some sense into me and said my heart was just not healthy ( Read more... )

Well Once again another update and once again no one will probably even read this as like the other updates. OH well what the fuck are you gunna do? NOthing of course. I guess this is the only place i can just let out what really goes on in my mind. SInce i don't like to show it in public because no one needs me to bring them down. BUt anyways the ( Read more... )

It seems no one really looks at these things anymore. I mean no one. It would be nice to know that there are a couple of people that still look at LJs and shit. I guess not. I mean I'll still write in this thing cause why not. WHy put it to waste, it seems that's what everyone does is put shit to waste. They find something new and completely forget ( Read more... )

This is a long one that i wrote a few days ago. It's called "Self-Destructive Mind ( Read more... )

Just read and see if it makes sense. Maybe I'm just crazy.

Sex is more addcitive then the coke entering our brains
It's more addictive then the heroin that drives us insane
It's like a fucking game,
tests the sanity we endure from pain
Not physical, but emotional
The most powerful thing that controls our mind frame.

So does anybody read Livejournals anymore. Or is everybody hooked on fucking myspace. Cause i realized people are fucking addicted to that shit. This is the first time I used my LJ in a long ass time because i miss just letting myself go on here. Just putting it out there you know. So at least someone can see what's goin on yo uk now. Not just that ( Read more... )

I was sitting at home depressed and shit, and i came up with this quote which sounds like a very short peom. Tell me what you guys think

"A life without Love, is a life so empty
Emptiness is loneliness, a life filled with envy
Love is a Drug that we can't live without
Without Love we are nothing but a lost soul in doubt."

I wrote this yesterday May 16th 2006, titled "Dreams become Reality" very emotional writing this and the previous peom. enjoy ( Read more... )