( `Quite barbaric, really, barbaric to put electric shocks through people's heads'. )

so im tired of bitching and moaning but im fucking pissed off all the time ( Read more... )

shock therapy is bullshit.

i want my fucking cds right now!

im hungry but cant eat.

i hope i pass out soon.

goodnight.

shifting mind frames and entering another dimension. im high. transported. laughing at nothing and everything. they fucked up me alright. im no longer the same person. capable of experiencing every emotion at once. but the shittiest part of the deal is my absentminded memory. i can hardly remember anything. where i put my cds, when doctor ( Read more... )

catnap. riley & i snuggled while watching makeover shows. need to call. apologize now. then early to bed. early to rise. ect tomorrow & daddy/daughter work day. yawn. yawn.

i want my memory back.
i want my life back.

i hope my memory safely returns soon
i hope this treatment helps
i hope i dont have to stay in that home for long
i hope to be free once again
i hope for hope
i hope for peace

TEN FIRSTS ( Read more... )

so i have only recently been released into the great abyss of life, once again. preparation still hesitant. my nerves off-kilter. the doctors still shocking the shit out of my mind. shoving pills down my throat. my parents shoving me out in the streets. group home. sure feed me away to the system. little to decide. little to know. the future keeps ( Read more... )

recently returned. partially refreshed. partially free. the air is now mine and i can smile with faith. my future is to be determined. home is no longer mine. but to be displaced within a group. rather weary yet formulated. the future. the future. its approaching.