Let it come

[citizen_hugo]

Unlike the other times when I have awoken after a restless sleep, I remember all of what happened yesterday. I can still see the fear shining in Elijah's eyes when I told him what I was going to do to him. I can still see the pain etched on his face as I beat him mercilessly, and yet I do not feel any regret for what I did and that worries some

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[subserv_elijah]

*I awaken to the feel of a soft hand stroking my hair and my face, and for a few moments its soothing, feels nice. But then I realize who the only one could be that's doing this, and I immediately stiffen up as a breath hitches in my chest. I can feel how sore my body is now as I wake fully, still leashed to the bed, but I don't move. I don't want him to know I'm awake... not yet. I know I'll have to deal with this soon enough, but every spare moment that I can have without him knowing that I'm awake...

[citizen_hugo]

*The action of gently caressing him soothes my mind and relaxes my body for a while. I smile softly and start talking to him. I know that he's still asleep and maybe it's for the best that he can't hear me but I just need to talk to somone

[subserv_elijah]

*My eyes closed still as I pretend to be alseep, I listen to him talk, cry... mutteinrg on about feeling sorry for everything that's happened, and how he really doesn't mean it, and for a moment, I almost want to cry myself and comfort him. But I'm afraid to - afraid that he might take that as complete forgivenness, and that surely isn't what that will be. A sob escapes me as I try to remain quiet, and I know he realizes I'm awake now. But then he talks about not being himself, and that I shouldn't fight him, and I shudder inside. I can't put up with much more. I'm going to crack if I'm forced to, so I con't say what my reaction is likely to be, either, even if I force myself to endure. What hurts the worst, though, is hearing him say that he can't, he wont, give me up... because it gives me only two options now. Escape here somehow... or die here.*

[citizen_hugo]

*I hear a sob below me and fall silent, the hand stroking his hair stilling. Oh god, he heard everything. He - he was meant to be asleep! How dare he wake up now, to see me in this state? Annoyed, I sit up stifly, wiping the back of my hand across my eyes.*

You're awake.

[subserv_elijah]

*I can't help but squirm more when you sink your finger into me - bath water isnt slick, and so all you're doing is aggravating the injuries that I already have.*

You're... hurting me!

*I whimper with hoarse voice as your hand begins to slowly tighten around my neck.*

[citizen_hugo]

Be quiet! Don't make me hurt you, I don't want to hurt you!

*I yell at him, my finger burrowing further inside. I don't seem to hear him clearly, well I can but the words he's saying don't sink in and I want him to shut up. My hand now covers his mouth rather than his throat, quieting the sounds that are coming from it as I wiggle the finger in deeper.*

[subserv_elijah]

*He doesn't stop, pushing his finger painfully deeper, and covers my mouth now with his hand, which is too close to being mouth and nose or a dunk into the water or whatever, and so I can't do this anymore. I can't let him try to kill me again. I push off against the sides of the tub and start to stand, to get myself out of the water and away from him, and my sore body complains the entire time.*

[citizen_hugo]

*He's leaving me again? No! That can't happen, not again! Struggling to stand in the slippery tub, I reach for him, grabbing his arm to pull him back to me.*