( Line in the sand )

And the chronic stomach aches are back.

I have a lot I want to say/write, but I'm not in the mood now.

His voice keeps echoing in my head. And I still have the hope that he will change his mind. I need to forget about that, because there is a good chance it won't happen ( Read more... )

Sparkling angel I Believed
You were my savior in my time of need
Blinded by faith I couldn't hear
All the whispers, the warnings so clear

I see the angels
I'll lead them to your door
There's no escape now,
No mercy no more
No remorse cause I still remember
The smile when you tore me apart

You took my heart
Deceived me right from the start
You showed me dreams
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I finally saw Mike today at work. As I had expected, he was pretty much clueless-he didn't think not calling would bother me. The "confrontation" went something like this ( Read more... )

The next part of the "where is Mike" game ( Read more... )

Well he was alive at 1 or 2 this afternoon. That's reassuring. I guess.
Ryan's sister informed me of this. I didn't ask if Ryan left with him, which would have been smart.
Now that I'm pretty sure he's fine, I can just be pissed off that he didn't call. It's easier to be mad at someone when you know that he's alive...

I went from being the happiest I have been in months, to being more miserable than I can remember ever being before. I used to be so sure of things. Now I'm not ( Read more... )

So as usual, I'm questioning myself, overthinking, maybe underthinking, and slowly going crazy ( Read more... )

I ripped 2 pairs of pants in 2 days. One on the butt, and one seam-splitting at the crotch. Yes, I feel quite talented ( Read more... )