the fact that im so lonely right now, not because im actually alone, but i'm without him, says a lot to me. i have plenty of people i could be with, but without him, its just not the same. am i that old? am i really ready for that commitment? ready or not..i got a year to decide.

the other day someone asked about one of my old best friends. and i couldn't remember who it was. i didn't realize that you could so easily erase someone from your life. i remember people i dont even like better than i do those who i used to call my friends. kinda sad. i know that its because this person got between me and someone i cared about. ( Read more... )

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so today has proven to be an extremely fucked up day. first thing this morning i hear that the boy i broke up with 2 months ago has been dating a girl for a month and he has decided that an engagement is certain by christmas or spring. oh wow. doesn't really surprise me. he wanted to marry me within the first month as well. good luck with that ( Read more... )

he leaves tuesday and is enlisted by wednesday ( Read more... )

last night i almost died. sort of. i don't like wrecks or standing around for an hour and a half while people take pictures. it led to a very uneventful and yet entirely terrifying night. i only got to see rachel for like 20 minutes as well as the others...and i entirely missed lasheka and margaret. hmpf ( Read more... )

i need a job. anyone got any great ideas? it kinda sucks not being able to come to winston until probably summer break..that's really gonna cut into my time make money. shitty.

done:
book read.
lit exam completed.

to go:
ireland app essay.
research results.
government project.
lunch with calley? sometime....
sign lease?
formal.

my teachers officially hate me. im only getting decent grades in the one class that i dont understand anything in...state & local government??? wtf ( Read more... )

im really tired of people who dont know me making assumptions and go so far as to threaten me. if you want to hit me...come do it. you're a pansy, you won't do. you're all talk ( Read more... )