I'm slightly in love with Steve. I think about him a lot but I'm not letting myself get too attached to someone who I probably won't be able to see till another year. His voice was real hot though and I enjoyed being around him a lot. I just don't know if he feels the same or I'm forcing myself to think he doesn't like me. It happens a lot I think ( Read more... )

I hope to later finish this totally with Nathan's side of the dream. It's weird...I never learned a name in my dreams, ever. Cept my own of course ( Read more... )

My Xanga journal shows usually the outside part of my life...what I did that day and how I felt about it. But this journal tells the story behind the scenes. Delving deeper into my feelings. Honestly I'm happy that Duke has found a girlfriend :3 I certainly didn't want him to be homosexual. I'm still a bit uneasy around my lesbian friend. I mean... ( Read more... )

There are times when I'm nervous or excited that I'm just about to burst...and then 30 minutes later I'm the complete opposite and I'd rather not be in love. I'd rather lose hope or I am losing hope in the emotions I feel. And those times I wish the world would just go away and leave me. But then there are those times where all I want to do is be ( Read more... )

Well I've totally unlink everything leading to this journal. However the smart people will probably try to get here if they really want to realize it. Of course it's not EXACTLY like my Xanga, it has an underscore! yaaaaaaay... ... Yeah so now I'm feeling really sad. You know why? Well, I spent the rest of the day with Duke and Mikey after Kyokai. ( Read more... )

Right about after Kyo-kai when everyone was gone and I sat alone in the library entrance, I did what any person would do to occupy themselves. Daydream.
I can't tell you the exact details of what went through my mind but I can tell you the results of the things I told to myself.

You know what's funny?
What?
How we act.
What do you mean?
Isn't it ( Read more... )

Sometimes there are times in life where you wish one thing would happen with all your heart...yet everytime you ask it too, it is slapped in your face that it'll never happen ( Read more... )

Happy fricken Birthday to me. I woke up at 4 because of a bad dream and now I'm having trouble sleeping. At least I don't have anymore scarey music on my winamp playlist >>

HAIL WINAMP!!

Here's something I thought was interesting! I'm in HOL (Hogwarts On-line) and my class Animal Magic asked me this question in the homework.

5.) If you were an Animagus, what would you transform into?I've been told a lot from other people that my personality best fits a cat, which species I do not know. Cats are independent by nature and that's one ( Read more... )

Yet again I feel guilty! D ( Read more... )