so I thought i would be totally random and out of the blue write in my livejournal. I don't know why. I have been quite enjoying just journalling in my private journal. But this weekend I saw a bunch of people I havn't seen in forever and I think it made me realize how much I miss so many people in my life. Thus I'm going to try to get back ( Read more... )

so New York City was... well to be honest not everyting I thought it would be. Well the city was awesome. But I don't know if i could live there... such a debate. I have been so in love with Fordham and then i saw it and it was like... I don't think this is what i want... I mean I feel like I am putting so much on the line to go there and I just ( Read more... )

finally i get a chance to update. i have been so busy. kinda nice... i got really sick of not doing anything. but now i am sitting in a room at the university club (downtown) with two sleeping little girls. i am babysitting while my "step cousin" (if you wanna call it that) has her wedding reception. its cool. thank god there is a computer here. or ( Read more... )

so i;'m actually really pissed about my scedule. i mean i guess its not that bad. but they fucked up with euro. they gave me euro instead of orchestra. so i'll have to change that... which sucks. and to be completly honest... i am thinknig about not changing it. i dunno. i mean i love orchestra and it would look really bad to drop it my senior year ( Read more... )

just got back from my COAP mission trip. anouther success. although this time i didn't have a seizure. thank god! but i managed to have a lot of fun. some highlights... met some kids from a youth group down there. i was in harlan kentuckey... yeah.. kinda funny. but the kids were actually really cool. exactly like us except with some different ( Read more... )

blah! i feel so blah! and ben folds is making me feel sad. never ever listen to "the luckiest" when you are feeling lonely... such a bad idea. beautiful song. but so... blah... "life is kicking my ass" as peter would say. i need something. but i don't really know what. i mean i need to buck up. it could be worse. but i just feel so... nonexsistant ( Read more... )

i love spring storms in all their mighty. so amazing...

so if any of you have been in my room, you know the head of my bed fits into a little alcove.. well i need a project for this summer and i have decided that i am going to cover that area in pictures, magazine clippings, quotes, etc. i love doing collages. so... first step... i need your favorite song quotes. gimme everything you got and the artist ( Read more... )

you told me our friendship ment the world. you told me you would never leave me or let me hurt. but you lied. you promised me i wouldn't be alone. you told me not to be afraid. but you lied. i trusted you. i believed every word that came out of your mouth and now i pay the price. i don't know why you can't remember to call. i don't know why you can ( Read more... )

as a response to my last entry. its not that i am really sad right now or depressed. i appritiate you guys caring and i should take advantage of you guys being there more often by picking up the dumb phone. hehe ( Read more... )