Happy note: i moved into my house today. We got here, and the garden was a jungle. tomorrow i am gonna get my hands mighty dirty ripping out weeds and such. its ok though because i need a project to devert myself from my impending sorrow. And as soon as we secure the boundries of our house, we can get puppies :):) hehe. also, my room wasnt as small ( Read more... )

ill take this oppertunity to be as completely depressing and pathetic as i can. I am very depressed. Can nothing make me happy? Everything that used to be amazing in my life now just makes me depressed because i am constantly reminded of how i cant have it anymore. everything that used to anoy me i long for, i would die for. fUCK its not fair, its ( Read more... )

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I want to remind everyone that my birthday is on the 26th. You know, just for future reference ( Read more... )

here are all the things that are good in my life right now (starting positivness now ( Read more... )

long time no speak, huh? well i think i have a million things to update on. flew to houston, basically spent the whole time at a mall across from the hotel. Kinda sucked , but it was warm and they had an amazing chinese resturaunt there that was all you can eat. It ruled. Then we went to L.A for 3 days, we went to disneyland which was asmazing, but ( Read more... )

Well here i am, its 11:14 sunday morning and i have nothing to do. No fucking thing to do. I could be with you now. They are sitting there eating pancakes. SERIOUSLY. Are they honest? ( Read more... )

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ahh one more week.I keep trying to tell myself its not as bad as it seems, that everything will be ok, that im not falling to peices.....that im strong......and i know i am strong, and that i will survive, but through that survival i will have to forget, or at least get dull to old memories.........ahhhhhhh god so scared, so panic-y so sick to my ( Read more... )

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