I miss the rain, the tall trees, the forest. I miss the beach and the waves. I miss the golden gate and the bunkers. I miss the runs, the freedoms, i miss being close to God. I miss the people, the cafes and random places. I miss the lakes and rivers. I miss the sitting out looking at stars. I miss the cold and the outdoor schools. I miss the ( Read more... )

So i needed an escape last night. I ran.. For about an hour at like 12 am. It was silly but it helped ( Read more... )

I have alot to say so i am going to just get it out.. this entries not for beauty, not for anyone.. just for me.

i have never been so ashamed to be in a household in my life. I have never wanted to get out more than now. I love my family and hate them. We never go out to dinner as a family, we hardly eat as one. And the trip they want to go on. I ( Read more... )

He called.. we talked.. we were fine. than he had to bring up shit. The shit i didnt want to hear ( Read more... )

I wasted my time. I thought it was more. And again i am burned.. What did i expect.. more maybe?

I need something to brighten me. Something to make me smile. Yes everyone you see me smile.. But its not true. I want to be giddy, happy to be alive.. and most days i wake up put on that smiley face.

Your not mine so i cant tell you who to talk to or not. But when 1000 girls a day tell you how hott they think you are. It starts to get alittle annoying. When every girl wants to hang out with you including me and when you dont have time. When we go out to dinner and have nothing to talk about. When we sit down and it seems awkward. I, always ( Read more... )

You can never win an arguement with ignorance.

This is one of my favorite quotes this year.

Okay so a boy got me thinking about my life. 
do i really not give a shit about people anymore?
Are relationships really just not in my future?
Am i turning into one of those girls that has no attachments?

I have always thought of myself as one of the girls that gets wayyy to attached and ends up falling for the wrong one.
Which in the end most oftenly ( Read more... )

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How odd life is
Quiet and peaceful one minute
And rowdy and loud the next.
Sometimes life is nurturing,
Caring
Holding you safely in its arms 
Then you're falling
Further and further down you go
Wondering if you'll ever 
Come back up.
Wondering when you'll feel mother natures arms caress you again
But one day she'll bring you back up
Again.
With the skies - ( Read more... )