my life is so fucking twisted. its wierd how open i am with my mom. like i feel way more comfertable tlaking ot her about not so great stuff lately.....like i just told her how i'm almost two weeks late. when will i ever learn.....boys suck and i should be a lesbian.

nope. i think i love him alot.

i'm ridiculous, i know.

i think i hate him. alot.

so it turns out this book i'm reading for english, that i got form the school's library, is a trashy romance novel. and a badly written one at that.

ya know i'm fucking sick of never knowing the right thing to say. and then when i think i do its taken teh wrong way. why do i bother talking

i'm watching "never been kissed" on tv and it has the cotton mouth kings in it. made me think of scott.....i wonder if i hate him......or just miss him

( please kill me, i won't stop you, please, if you love me kill me )

( Cinderella's Ball )

my dad was in town yesterday. stopped by honey farms to see if my brother was working. didnt stop by the house ot see if i was home. i dont think he loves me anymore....yepe, that hurts....

i hate my mother. i absolutly het her. i'm supposed to be going to boston today. i'm suposed to have the one opportunity to be myself completly today. i'm supposed to be able to take advantage of the geourgous day outside. i'm not supposed to be screwing over my friends and fucking up their day. i'm not supposed to be siting at home alone all ( Read more... )